struggling

i have recently learned i gained ten pounds at the docs office... I feel so fat and ugly and today i was on a bing i ate 12 cookies and a bunch of crap.. i just purged... i feel so rotten.. i broke my 4 month streak....... STUPID ME....... i hate myself for it.. i hate being fat.. i hate it so much i wonder if life is worth being like this.. i dont know i just feel like giving up on everything and going back to purging everyday and cutting and all that jazz.......

ranting again im sorry.

(((bd))) sorry, don't know how to help you through, I don't have an eating disorder, but don't relish the fact I have gained some weight. For me, I just accept myself as is, I'm 5'3 1/2" and weigh 160 lbs right now (until three years ago, I never weighed more than 120 lbs-unless pregnant). Most people can't believe I weigh that much because I have an hour glass figure...still just the same, I ain't too happy with it...

I know personally I am going through the change, got into a bit of a slump, then just really didn't give a rat's patooty. I picked up some not so good eating habits, which I am now correcting.

I hope you can find what you need to get you through. You are worthy of feeling better, and your worth isn't based on your weight, or your looks, it seriously is who you are on the inside. I know that sounds way too cliche, but it's the truth!!!

((((((black dragon)))))))

You are not how much you weigh. I know you struggle with feeling icky inside. Maybe you can do something good for yourself. You truely deserve it.

Drink lots of water! If you are like me and dislike the taste get the powder to flavor it or buy it with the flavor, tea is also nice and has zip calories! Exercise if you feel so bad. Talking things out and writing in a Notebook also can help. Best of luck!

blackdragon, check with your dr. are you getting enough vitamins, dearheart, stay safe