[dcs_no1_fan]

Why cant I see what everyone else see's ?

My Husband put his hand on my hip this morning & told me that im getting to skinny as all he could feel was my hip bone

Than today I was a friends mum that I havent seen I a few months & she told me that I was to skinny & was looking really drawn & anorexic

Why cant I see what every one else see's im not skinny far from it I went back up to 118lb at the beging on sept & everyone told me that I looked really good for doing so but all I could see was fat

Why cant I see what they all see im now 113lb & really want to get rid of that 13lb but I cant do it

Why when I look in the mirror or a shop window as I pass it cant I see what everyone else see's all I can see Is a really BIG FAT person looking back at me all my clothes (3weeks old) are getting to big again so I can now get in to a size 6 but im still not happy

Sorry to go on I will go now & let you get on that is if there Is any one still there

[Soidhonia]

Hello I am very sorry that you are anorexic, and feel that you are overweight when you arent. Anorexia is a very traumatizing disorder, but there is help out there, that may help you to retrain your way of thinking about weight issues, and yourself, and turn your thinking into a positive reflection for yourself . there may also be support groups in your area that help persons with anorexia that may can help you feel more confident without food being your enemy, and your weight always having to be perfect. you are welcome to email if you wish neohiodbsa@yahoo.com I hope the best for you in your recovery. take care Soidhonia

[dcs_no1_fan]

(((((soidhonia)))))

I'm sorry. This must be really hard... I have no idea...

I've read... That people with anorexia have trouble with certain kinds of tasks that involve the person representing their body accurately. Not just body size, but other things to do with the body too... That some studies have shown that people with anorexia have different neural activity when they are doing those kinds of tasks...

Of course it is hard to know whether the neurological findings preceed the disorder or whether they are an effect of starvation...

Good news is... Treatment can help.

Maybe it is about... Differentiating between the *feeling* of being fat and the *rational knowledge* one has on the basis of objective evidence like weight and BMI or whatever...

I have trouble with that... Not about my weight... But about some other stuff. It can be hard...

[dcs_no1_fan]

(((((special_k)))))

[Soidhonia]

Hello I hope you are doing better today, I wanted to tell you that there is a diet for hypoglycemia on the American Diabetic Association website that may help you in some of your issues with weight without endangering your health. a hypoglycemia diet lets you eat less more often so for anorexics it is ideal because you get to eat less without endangering your health by meeting the requirements that you need nutritionally. Also it gives you a lot of options as well for what to eat so you feel less guilty about eating less food more often because you are not consuming hugw amounts of calories at one time, and putting on weight. If you go to the website you will need to go to the hypoglycemia website for the diet. I hope the best for you email anytime Soidhonia

[dcs_no1_fan]

im doing about the same still my husband wants to take me out for a meal at the weekend & even though it is very nice of him I now I will not beable to eat it & so does he but he is trying to help me I will have a look at that web site now thankyou

[razeljenny]

So SAD to hear the pain. I wrote down what was my feelings for a while. Try to do it each night before sleep.

Promise yourself to eat more better health giving food tomorrow. You can succeed.

You may need to draw up a special menu. I think that you shoud get a 2000 cal or more one out at the library and "just follow it pretty much with out putting your own minds emotions into the job of eating for yourself:"

By going automatic and eating this way I regained my balance pretty naturally. I however admitted my powerlessness over this illness. It is afterall a real illness where We see our figures in the mirror as way larger than they are. Just remembering that we can promote healthy diet but just eating by rote the stuff we need to survive and may even "than some" When you start getting into the hang of it your appetite will naturally come back and all and you will start to eat some foods that you really enjoy that aren't either bad or good just "fine to taste and enjoy"

Moderation is certainly the key but for us "Annies we have to get into a program of remembering we are infact powerless over food and than we may begin something better tomorrow. Keep the faith and IM me if you wish, I truly care. I been there more times in my life than I am comfortable admitting. I was 92 pounds when I was 25 and they would not let me give blood because I was too underweight and that was the day I reconed I truly "Had a Eating Disorder"

But WE CAN HEAL WITH THE FAITH THAT WE CAN ALITTLE BIT AT A TIME MY NICE FRIEND

[zombiette]

dcs, ur right, u can't lose anymore weight - it won't make u happy no matter how thin u get. logically u know ur not fat - but then again, that's not really the problem...work on ur self-esteem and the problems in ur life that have started and maintained ur ED...from there the rest will follow. All the best

[dcs_no1_fan]

Thankyou both for what you have said Im trying but its so hard I just want to get to 100lb whats so wrong with that im nearly there on 9lb to go now

[zombiette]

b/c chances are if u get to 100 u won't be satisfied with that, u'll still think u look fat at 100 and so u hafta go lower, and so the vicious cycle continues...don't do this to urself, u r worth so much more.

[Estee1]

I can agree with that thought about the losing weight. When I started to lose weight to try to achieve my goal weight I started to feel that it wasn't low enough and I had to make the number even smaller. It was scary but not enough to make me stop. I still have trouble with it and I don't even know what to say to help you because I am in the same boat. It's so confusing. I just don't know how to make myself see myself like other people see me. I know that I look disgusting at this weight and I have people comment about my appearance constantly but somehow I can't stop doing this. I know that I look bone thin but I don't want to put on weight.
Hope you feel better soon.