[touchingthestars]

I was at the start of a relapse and then this morning I re-commited to recovery... It was hard. And now I am in so much stomach pain... (Maybe from eating properly after 2 days of really restricted intake? Is that possible? Before those 2 days I was eating almost 100% of what need)

I NEED this meal! If I don't have it it will turn my week into a slide and I don't want that to happen. I'm also in so much pain... Any suggestions?

[waggiedog]

Hello dear fellow sufferer. This is not at all uncommon, I could say it always does happen ~ following any severely restricted eating regime. Being ill for however long, followed by any sort of recovery, and then going on a downward trend really messes with your poor body, especially your tum. It's rather like the ''binge starve, or binge purg''. Your physical form and even more so in your mental form can't cope with the extreme changes and yes, you will feel very uncomfortable around the tummy. HARD, VERY HARD as it is the only way forward is to dust yourself off and start again. The key is not to stray from the path when you do stumble, it's that ''stumble'' that's the important thing, for you have the choice to either give up and tell yourself you've messed up so why not completely sabatarge (can't spell!!) your good work, or get back on the path while you still can. I KNOW this all sounds oh so easy for those who've never had any ED's. I've had 33 years of every kind of ED, fallen from the highest of high paths, only to land at the bottom of hell, but keep in your mind how much better you feel when fueling your body with good stuff, but also trying a few snacks too. HUGS. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[jelly-bean]

I think that next time you start to eat after restricted intake you should eat several smaller meals during the day. It will keep your stomach open a bit and lessen the possibility of pain occuring. Maybe you should try some Milk of Magnesia or something for now.

[touchingthestars]

Originally Posted by jelly-bean

I think that next time you start to eat after restricted intake you should eat several smaller meals during the day. It will keep your stomach open a bit and lessen the possibility of pain occuring. Maybe you should try some Milk of Magnesia or something for now.

Thanks for the suggestion... But I try to stick to what my therapist says cuz its hard for me to judge what's truly good for me. And my therapist said I should get straight back on track and eat 100%. Which (I am proud to say) so far I have I ate lying down cuz sitting up was too painful. But the main point is that I ate! And that is great

Sorry I like corny jokes...

[touchingthestars]

Originally Posted by waggiedog

Hello dear fellow sufferer. This is not at all uncommon, I could say it always does happen ~ following any severely restricted eating regime. Being ill for however long, followed by any sort of recovery, and then going on a downward trend really messes with your poor body, especially your tum. It's rather like the ''binge starve, or binge purg''. Your physical form and even more so in your mental form can't cope with the extreme changes and yes, you will feel very uncomfortable around the tummy. HARD, VERY HARD as it is the only way forward is to dust yourself off and start again. The key is not to stray from the path when you do stumble, it's that ''stumble'' that's the important thing, for you have the choice to either give up and tell yourself you've messed up so why not completely sabatarge (can't spell!!) your good work, or get back on the path while you still can. I KNOW this all sounds oh so easy for those who've never had any ED's. I've had 33 years of every kind of ED, fallen from the highest of high paths, only to land at the bottom of hell, but keep in your mind how much better you feel when fueling your body with good stuff, but also trying a few snacks too. HUGS. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thank you! I don't mind your spelling (same problem here ) and your message was what I needed to hear.

I hope you have a great rest-of-your-day, and that you find in it lots of happiness and hope and clarity in which direction you should be heading!

[eskielover]

If I've been eating more normally & then stop eating for a few days then start again......I always end up with really bad diarrhea (I know TMI...lol)....but it's really painful & get the stomach cramps with that......they I almost wish I hadn't even eaten again because of how horrible I feel.

I don't binge/purge.....I am just the one that doesn't eat or eats one meal a day. Any more than that & I feel horrible.....sleepy & just non-functional.

I actually feel better if I eat a bowl of soup or something light when trying to eat again after a few days of not eating.

It was really bad after being hospitalized after not eating well for months......I couldn't get my body to function right for months after that & like I said even now it resorts back to that same way of functioning & everything I eat goes right through.

[_fleurette_]

touchingthestars, you're doing great! keep up the good work! I loved the post by waggiedog. I also struggle a lot with structured eating plan drafted by my dietitian and in fact I'm trying to skip meals or to reduce portion size.. so hard. I've been having B for 20 years or even more and now at the age of 33 I'm here in the bottom, I don't want to live and I don't want my children to live either cause all the three of us are a burden to everyone around us, I know it's not true but it's just my mind which talks this non-stop. And I have that absolutely awful body image, I don't even want to brush my teeth or to comb cause it's not going to improve the way I look in any way.
I am now taking sertraline, hope this helps a bit. And I'm also trying to stick to the meal plan so I'm with you touching the stars!