relapse.. sugar binging again..

I've had a major set back.. due to recent stessors in life.. and have started sugar binging once again... yes a disappointment.. great, great disappointment to me...

I had limited.. my binging to organic yogurt.. and been successfully controlling it.. but life happens I guess...

so 20 steps backward.. once again... no light at the end of the tunnel right now..

my asthma is way out of control too... all tied in I'm sure..
I'm up for 10 min.. down for 50.. Yippee.. the joys of life..

((((((((freewill)))))))))))

gezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

how sick can a person get without dying???

ahhhhhhhh.. blah.....

Freewill,

Where do you find organic yogurt?

I had some Chuckles for lunch at school on Thursday, and have been craving some Dots today.

EJ

EJ! How are you and how is your ankle? Has it healed?

How's school going?!

We have organic yogurt in our grocery store's organic section that has the organic dairy products. Stonyfield Farm is one brand and they have a website Stonyfield.com that might tell where their products can be found. I hope this helps!

feeling better...Yazaa...

only me would think of organic yogurt to binge on... lol

yes... stonyfield.. vanilla - comes in large containers... then you can put fresh blueberries or a banana in it.. tastes good.. as long as you aren't in a binge cycle..

But sugar.. pure sugar... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

Hi, I bought a medium bag of peanut m &m's and Just slowed down cigerettes. It really was good for a while. Than m&m's started flying out of the thin yellow bag. I woke up eating them on automatic. I blamed people of eating them. I ate them myself. It did work but It didn't at the same time. Dammit do I feel ******.

I started putting the teddy--bear under my solor-plexis to temporarly take away the horring horrid pain (which is real)
I hold on to cool quarzs stones to calm myself once again. I just either get hellishly worse or maybe slightly stable for a small slot of time, until things get worse as normal. I am jelous of the rest of you normals that go out to fried chicken, eat big-macs with impunity, eat sundaes with no trouble at dairy queen, eat two slices of birthday cake at your party, eat your sisters homemade lagsaugna with out being so bloated that for two days you wish you could evaporate because of the price of horrid pain you paid for that little trifle that you really enjoyed but make you uggggg. I am jelous of folks that will go on a saturday picnic eating jo jo's and chicken strips from the roadside convience store, and not be very very ill for two days just from a trifle. Why on earth did God make someone like me? Am I supossed to eat blender fish and blender veggies (since thats all that won't make me deathly ill?)- Why- do you think I should enjoy every bite of the only darn %#@&#! I CAN eat. No f----- way!!!!!! I am not being hysterical. But I do understand you Freewill, I understand how much of outcast we may feel like suffering from a disease that is not even on the normal treatment list and mostly thought of only as mental illness when it could be other things besides just that! Hang in there

Ohhh how I love you "razeljenny"... you will never know how much...

I feel soooo very alone all the time... when no one but no one understands...

And then... you post... and I feel so very understood.. and I feel that out there.. is you.. holding my hand.. when I cry and sob... because.. it hurts so very, very much..

Thank you will all my heart for sharing and "being" with me... holding my hand..

There are very few foods that I can eat any more... due to the damage to my system...

non-sugar nautral peanut butter
whole grain toast - no butter.. margaine..
tuna fish..
light mircle whip..
eggs..
organic yogurt..
apples as long as it is with peanut butter
oatmeal..
banana - as long as it is yougrt
blueberries.. as long as it is in yougrt

that is pretty much my "list".... anything else... cause severe pain...

And binging on organic yogurt - that is not for lbs.. it is the only thing my system will tolerate..

I try to keep my sense of humor...sometimes it is hard.. I want to cry.. and cry..

Well at least you have Blueberries...I love berries of all sorts...

Sorry about the sugar...

Maybe it wasn't twenty steps back ... are you sure? I could have been 19.99 steps back?

I just wanted to say I'm sorry you're hurting so very much. I struggle with anorexia and bulimia and it is so hard so much of the time. I wish you the best.

(((free)))