[LucyD]

Just dropping in to say hello to everyone...if you want to chat with me you can vm me or pm me.

[Blue_Bird]

Haven't checked in for awhile

Possible trigger:

ended up in the ER due to the ED and related issues. I was in denial I guess.

Anyway, I'm home now and am making a serious effort to recover.

Hope everyone is well

motivation today =0

I litirally, after breakfast, sat in my room and watched my soap opera (back to back episodes). I saved like a week of recordings of the show

emotionally I am doing a bit better than yesterday, but no where near healthy emotions.
dinner wasn't too impressive, and the garlic bread left a horrible taste in my mouth

(I like garlic bread, just not the sort I had this evening)

so far today it's no sleep and really bad back pain

oh and burned breakfast which I've come to realise is not the worst thing in the world.

burned toast actually tastes quite nice

[ssintas]

Was tired all morning...ate too much. So I took a nap, woke up, and ate more. ARGH! I just want some normalcy

[Blue_Bird]

I'm starting to feel a lot better physically, I'm determined to recover

[Blue_Bird]

How's everyone been doing?

I'm doing alright, to be honest I feel a little scared from my experience on Monday but it was a wake up call I needed

I ate normal the past few days. Im having a lot of anxiety but trying to work through it

backpain not letting up

(as I wrote that, got a really sharp tingle)

tumble drier's broken but hopefully not for long.

did laundry today but had to dry clothes outside (not as affective)

appetite big today

not really an overeat but certainly over the top
one of my little insiders wrote a story today

all by herself

so cute

[Gr3tta_0]

My wife has been very ill in hospital for 3 weeks. Watching her vomit and wretch continuously for days on end while npo and w/tubes in her stomach actually turned off some of my negative urges. She is home now, and i am so delighted. Really trying to care for myself better so i can take the best care of her. So happy she's home.

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

My wife has been very ill in hospital for 3 weeks. Watching her vomit and wretch continuously for days on end while npo and w/tubes in her stomach actually turned off some of my negative urges. She is home now, and i am so delighted. Really trying to care for myself better so i can take the best care of her. So happy she's home.

how is she feeling now?

vomiting is horrible. it leaves your mouth so dry

try and get her to have little bits of liquid to keep her hydrated

actually I find soup works good

and mint tea (but not all at once)

I have been really struggling this week with hunger.

actually, my food (main food) has been really poor this week, and I've not been enjoying it

so I think that's why. I'm eating chocolate and things more than usual, but it's not actually filling me up because my food (dinner and breakfast) is so poor

[Blue_Bird]

Almost 2 weeks into recovery, feeling pretty good

[Albatross2008]

I bought a dress today for Easter.

It fits me. I can stand, sit, bend, and twist in it, and nothing rips. It is not made of any kind of stretchy knit fabric.

And it did NOT come from the Plus Size section.

[Blue_Bird]

Hello, I'm doing pretty well. My doctor weighed me, but I didn't see the number because it was done where I wouldn't face it. I've been referred to a nutritionist, so I'll be setting up that appointment soon.

[Moose72]

Warning: *MAY TRIGGER*

New here. I just read this entire thread! Talk about free time.

I am not dx with an ED. However, I thought I'd pass my experience along.

I am dx with schizoaffective disorder- bipolar 1 with pschotic features basically but those features are outside a mood episode.

I recently started exercising and eating less/more nutritionally. Because of the meds Ive taken for bp/sza have ruined my metabolism and Ive gained 60 pounds over the last 14 years. Before I was diagnosed, I was very fit: judo 2/3 times a week, competed... In fact I have pix of me at a competition- it makes me so sad! I was in shape. Now I catch my reflection, and I hate it. I see obese people in public and think "that's how I look..." I purposefully do not look at the scale at the doctor or pdoc.

When I was exercising a lot, I had just lost 60 pounds! Now I feel like I'm starting over. I HAD to go to judo even if I didn't feel well. I restricted food all the time and would only eat certain foods. I would "chew/spit"- chew yummy food but stop short of swallowing and spit it out. I was too lazy to figure out how to make myself throw up. Now, because of the psych meds, I have developed fatty liver disease from having metabolic syndrome: pre-diabetes, high cholesterol, and high triglycerides. I am incredibly upset over this! The first time I lost weight, people would tell me how great I looked. Guys only wanted me for my body. My primary doctor became concerned about my weight as it kept going down- too much. I was also very anemic. I was cold all the time. I'd not eat before judo and once almost fainted in the locker room after class. Or, sometimes, I'd get home from class and binge because I felt so bad. Then I'd feel guilty. Everything I ate had to be compensated for with "the right type" of exercise.

Now, I'm seeing the old patterns creeping back. I am seriously planning to discontinue Rexulti- an antipsychotic- because it causes weight gain. I just went off Seroquel because of weight-gain side effects. Previously, I have taken Depakote and Zyprexa- two psych meds that are notorious for "severe" weight gain. I plan to walk or ride my bike as often as I can (stupid rain) to get a big head start. I see myself restricting already "in the name of health". I can only have certain "healthy" foods. Some days all I eat is granola cereal with a banana. I feel I'm sliding back to my old ways- even if still technically overweight.

Thanks for making it this far!

[88Butterfly88]

Ate too much today, will try to do better tomorrow.

[Moose72]

Ate Easter dinner with family. Didn't take much but I ate it. I still feel kinda low-blood-sugary even so because I had nothing but a piece of cheese with a large coffee until I ate at 45 mins ago- caffeine overload.

[Albatross2008]

Today I needed to dust under the computer desk in the living room.

Last time I did that, I was unable to lower myself to the floor. I had to sit on the couch, scoot forward and ease myself down, and then roll (not crawl, because that hurt my knees too much) across the room so I could do the dusting. Then when I was done, I had to reverse the process and roll back to the couch so I could use it to pull myself up.

This time, I didn't need to do all that. I could get down to the floor, right where I was. And then when I was done--surprise--I could stand up again! Not without some pain. I couldn't do this easily, but I could do it.

Getting stronger. Weight loss is barely detectable to me, visually, but other signs are there.

[LucyD]

Hi everyone. Just dropping in to say hello. Haven't been at this forum much lately or PC in general. I wish everyone all the best...

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Hi everyone. Just dropping in to say hello. Haven't been at this forum much lately or PC in general. I wish everyone all the best...

Hey Lucy, it;s good to see you, I was wondering how you've been

[Blue_Bird]

Going on 3 weeks into recovery, doing very well! I've been eating regularly, getting some exercise, and eating healthy foods

[88Butterfly88]

Overeating wasn't too bad today. Treated myself to chocolate pizza but I didn't overdo it.

[Gr3tta_0]

My eating has totally collapsed. But I'm always fine, so it must be okay. I'm having minor surgery on the 9th under full anesthesia, and of course i didn't mention any ED history. I also weighed in with an underweight bmi with several layers of clothes and shoes, and no one asked. They're not concerned. So, I'll just assume it's all fine, and if anything goes wrong they can fix it. I'm always okay, I'm sure I'll be okay forever. Right?

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

My eating has totally collapsed. But I'm always fine, so it must be okay. I'm having minor surgery on the 9th under full anesthesia, and of course i didn't mention any ED history. I also weighed in with an underweight bmi with several layers of clothes and shoes, and no one asked. They're not concerned. So, I'll just assume it's all fine, and if anything goes wrong they can fix it. I'm always okay, I'm sure I'll be okay forever. Right?

I really hope you mention the ED to your doctor who's doing the surgery just to be sure you'll be okay under anesthesia

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Hey Lucy, it;s good to see you, I was wondering how you've been

Thanks for your concern, nice to hear from you. Feeling down today but each day changes and maybe it will get better. Feel free to PM or VM me anytime. I check it almost every day.