[LucyD]

Just thought I'd say hi to you all. I have nothing to add.

[Blue_Bird]

Put my scale away. Just going to check my weight every two weeks for a bit, was getting obsessed with it again and weighing myself every day multiple times

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Just thought I'd say hi to you all. I have nothing to add.

Hope you're doing well

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Put my scale away. Just going to check my weight every two weeks for a bit, was getting obsessed with it again and weighing myself every day multiple times

I have mine back in my apt. It's not bothering me as much as it was for some reason. I am not what I weigh but a whole woman with qualities. Never going to be a size 0! Don't want to be either.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Hope you're doing well

Doing okay, thank you. I hope you are doing alright, too. Wishing you all the best!

[Blue_Bird]

I'm trying to learn to eat without feeling guilty afterward and like I have to work off every calorie. I've been eating pretty well but still have very bad feelings of guilt after. I'm coming up on 3 months of recovery

[LucyD]

I know the feeling BB. It's okay to eat; we all need it to live. That may not help but it's all I got right now. I hope things will be okay for you.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

I know the feeling BB. It's okay to eat; we all need it to live. That may not help but it's all I got right now. I hope things will be okay for you.

Thank you Lucy, it seems to be getting easier with time thankfully 🙂

Tomorrow marks 3 months of recovery

[childofchaos831]

I have been struggling hardcore. I was in the hospital and I no control over the food I was getting or the amount. It was really triggering me...

[88Butterfly88]

I did okay food-wise today.

[LucyD]

Happy 4 of July to all.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Happy 4 of July to all.

Thanks, hope you had a good fourth

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Thanks, hope you had a good fourth

Mine was very quiet. Could have gone to a cookout but chose not to for my sanity's sake..lol. Sometimes it's better being alone with the pets!

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Mine was very quiet. Could have gone to a cookout but chose not to for my sanity's sake..lol. Sometimes it's better being alone with the pets!

Yes I spent the day watching stuff on Netflix with my cats

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Yes I spent the day watching stuff on Netflix with my cats

I watched tv. I hope your week will be good for you. I have to be in bankruptcy court Mon. morning. I was a wreck about it but increased my meds. to get rid of anxiety. I hope it goes smoothly. I know nothing about what happens there accept for what the lawyer told me and that was not much.

I need to get back to my Diabetic Meals Plans. To eat better for my health's sake, too. Sometimes I do better than others.

[Blue_Bird]

Struggling the past couple days but I think things will get better, I'm learning more about myself. Stress, anxiety and lack of sleep often trigger my binges. Sometimes boredom, less often than the other two though. It's just a habit to eat to make myself feel good and that just results in using compensatory behaviors to "make up" for the binges and the cycle goes on. In the past 3 days, I binged/purged 2 of the days. The first day I was stressed and super tired from not sleeping enough and I binged/purged. 2nd day I didn't binge or purge, and that was the day after the night I slept a full 8 hours and felt good mentally. Today I binged, did not purge, only got 4 hours of sleep last night. But I'm just using this stuff to learn about how this pattern works instead of beating myself over some slip ups. I'm noticing triggers to the b/p episodes when I look back and go over the previous days/weeks. etc

Obviously getting good sleep and managing stress and anxiety are vital to recovery. Keeping busy is important too. And doing stuff that feels good that doesn't involve food. Like playing videogames and card games, drawing or coloring, journaling, watching favorite shows and movies, reading, and listening to music. Going to church and connecting to my faith helps, and mindfulness helped me very much in the past so I'm working on using that more. Aromatherapy is great too, there's something so relaxing about good smells

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

I watched tv. I hope your week will be good for you. I have to be in bankruptcy court Mon. morning. I was a wreck about it but increased my meds. to get rid of anxiety. I hope it goes smoothly. I know nothing about what happens there accept for what the lawyer told me and that was not much.

I need to get back to my Diabetic Meals Plans. To eat better for my health's sake, too. Sometimes I do better than others.

I hope that your court date goes well, I'm sure that's stressful

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I hope that your court date goes well, I'm sure that's stressful

It was very stressful for me yes. It was Mon. It went okay and the bankruptcy will be finalized when I get a letter, hopefully. Then I can start anew. I'm not getting any credit cards anymore. Will just use my debit card. It's really easy to get into debt I see that now. Now I throw all the offers for credit in the trash.

How are you doing?

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

It was very stressful for me yes. It was Mon. It went okay and the bankruptcy will be finalized when I get a letter, hopefully. Then I can start anew. I'm not getting any credit cards anymore. Will just use my debit card. It's really easy to get into debt I see that now. Now I throw all the offers for credit in the trash.

How are you doing?

I'm glad it went well, yeah I've never had a credit card and likely never will get one, I have a big problem with impulse shopping

I'm doing pretty well, I slipped up with my ED the other day but I used the experience to learn from it and keep moving forward. I'm feeling positive

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I'm glad it went well, yeah I've never had a credit card and likely never will get one, I have a big problem with impulse shopping

I'm doing pretty well, I slipped up with my ED the other day but I used the experience to learn from it and keep moving forward. I'm feeling positive

Yes, it's best to use things as learning experiences. I am doing that, too.

Feeling tired today. Going to go rest. Take care.

[Lost Soul Lady]

Find it so difficult to eat anything even the things I usually crave. I’m really scared

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Lost Soul Lady

Find it so difficult to eat anything even the things I usually crave. I’m really scared

Do you see a doctor or therapist?

[LucyD]

Having bar b q Western Ribs and beans and rice and not going to worry about it...

[Blue_Bird]

Things have been going okay, I'm a little frustrated due to extreme hunger caused by seroquel, I'm worried about gaining more weight but I'm trying not to obsess over it. I'm some what torn. Seroquel helps me so much yet part of me wants to stop it just to lose the weight I've gained

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Having bar b q Western Ribs and beans and rice and not going to worry about it...

That sounds good, I love ribs