[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Things have been going okay, I'm a little frustrated due to extreme hunger caused by seroquel, I'm worried about gaining more weight but I'm trying not to obsess over it. I'm some what torn. Seroquel helps me so much yet part of me wants to stop it just to lose the weight I've gained

I understand. I take rispiradone and it does the same thing. Can you ask about lowering the dose? Sometimes that can help.

[Blue_Bird]

Thanks Lucy I think I've come to terms with the seroquel and the fact that I may never be some so called "perfect weight" I'm happy to be stable mentally. anyway, I'm doing what I can to eat healthy, it's quite a task, I'm always tipping either in the bingeing direction or over to the restrictive direction, I'm trying to learn to find balance

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Thanks Lucy I think I've come to terms with the seroquel and the fact that I may never be some so called "perfect weight" I'm happy to be stable mentally. anyway, I'm doing what I can to eat healthy, it's quite a task, I'm always tipping either in the bingeing direction or over to the restrictive direction, I'm trying to learn to find balance

I'm also doing healthier eating. One thing for sure..don't think I'll ever be perfect and I'm going to give that up..lol

[Starving2death]

I'm hungry as hell because I'm restricting and I don't know how I'll sleep with this hunger.
But I'll do anything to get more weight off of my body! I know this depression is from not eating but it's working to prevent me from eating. This sucks that I'm still doing this at my age. I'm 62 and still trying to be as thin as possible. Well, emaciated would be more like it. My organs hurt from not eating. My spine is sticking out and causes me a great deal of pain.

[LucyD]

My first inclination is to say please eat! I cannot control another person, though. I hope you are getting treatment.

[kumy]

I'm losing weight and I'm happy about it, though I shouldn't. Next week I have an appointment with my dietician. I don't think she will be happy with the weight loss...

[kumy]

She was not angry, but she is expecting me to gain some weight fot the next appointment. I will try to do it. Just some kilos won't make myself more disgusting...

[ShaggyChic_1201]

Originally Posted by Starving2death

I'm hungry as hell because I'm restricting and I don't know how I'll sleep with this hunger.
But I'll do anything to get more weight off of my body! I know this depression is from not eating but it's working to prevent me from eating. This sucks that I'm still doing this at my age. I'm 62 and still trying to be as thin as possible. Well, emaciated would be more like it. My organs hurt from not eating. My spine is sticking out and causes me a great deal of pain.

I'm 52 & have struggled w/EDs for 40 yrs b/c of severe abuse. The only thing that took me away from the razor's edge you're on right now is talking to a therapist about the trauma - specifically about what boundaries are and how to keep mine intact. I was using ED as a boundary (something I could control, or so I thought) and it numbed me to what was happening to me. Once I learned that I could walk away from toxic people (even if they are blood relatives), the primal need to restrict/binge was lessened. I'm not perfect. I will always have issues, but I'm so much better than I was.

I know everyone is different, and I'm not presuming that you have the same issues, but every body will fail due to malnutrition and I'd hate to see you die before you have a chance to experience life without the chains of ED.

If you're not seeing an ED specialist, PLEASE do more than post here. Please commit to finding one you like and start taking your life back.

All the best,
Shaggy

[kumy]

It's midday and I've eaten soooo much. I'm tired of using food as a confort, but it seems as if I'm unable to stop.

[kumy]

Today I finally started the plan that the dietitian gave me. I will try to follow it to the letter and stop using food as comfort. I can do this.

[kumy]

It was a good day. I ate and exercised as I should and I don't regret it.

[Blue_Bird]

October will mark 6 months of recovery from bulimia for me

[kumy]

That's amazing, Blue_Bird. I hope you are really proud of you.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by kumy

That's amazing, Blue_Bird. I hope you are really proud of you.

Thank you! I definitely am, it's been a long hard road but it's been getting much easier over time.

Hope you're doing well

[LucyD]

Hi all. Autumn is almost here--I love this time of year.

Lately I realized that weight loss isn't done in one day. Somehow I thought I had to starve myself to lose weight when that just isn't so. I have an overeating problem at times.

I'm still learning the ins and outs of myself in regard to many things--progress over perfection. I have expected myself to be perfect in every way and only hurt myself doing that. Learning to listen to my wise inner voice instead of the BS from society that I don't need.

[88Butterfly88]

I ate more than I should have today.

[kumy]

Today it was a bad day. Summer is getting closer so everyone is on diets to lose some weight and all the talking about calories, healthy eating, exercise and so on really triggered me. Anyway, I managed to eat rice cakes and peas both for lunch and dinner.

[88Butterfly88]

I had too much candy today.

[LucyD]

I don't know what this thread is about anymore I guess it's whatever it is to the individual posting but just checking in, whatever that means..lol. Trying to address some of my problems to make life better.

[88Butterfly88]

@LucyD It is my understanding this is a check-in thread for us to post how we are doing. I hope your life improves soon.

I ate too much cereal today.

[Blue_Bird]

I'm doing well, bounced back pretty good from a slip up, eating healthy

[SoSorry7735]

I've realized that no matter what, I lose.
If I give into my appetite, I am disgusted, angry, and guilty.
If I restrict, I am hungry and irritable and exhausted.

What the heck!

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by 88Butterfly88

@LucyD It is my understanding this is a check-in thread for us to post how we are doing. I hope your life improves soon.

I ate too much cereal today.

Yes, I guess it is. My life is not so bad. Doing well lately.

[LucyD]

I don't come here very often anymore. For some reason I feel good when I get here and leave feeling bad.

[Blue_Bird]

Doing well, had a slip up a few days ago but keep moving forward. Trying to stop obsessing about my weight now.