[Blueberrybook]

Can there even be a worse mix?

I HATE the time from Thanksgiving through Christmas, New Year's Eve. Not only are there a ton of forced social events I already don't look forward to, but every stinking one of them involves FOOD!

I am "recovered" well mostly I guess, I don't think it will ever be 100%, and even so, holidays hit me hard with all the food, food, food.

And worse, then comes New Year's and January with DIET, DIET, DIET blaring everywhere - social media, TV, magazines, friends & relatives. I am at a normal BMI for my height and I do not NEED to diet, but try to convince the ED thoughts of this. Every time I get around something/someone talking about dieting, here I go beating myself up for not eating healthy enough, not dieting, not exercising enough.

Are the holidays tough for anyone else here?

[MuddyBoots]

Hell yeah. My last IEA was a year ago from five days from today and a big part of what led to that was severe disordered eating.

This time of year is always just a shitshow lately. It's not even winter or winter-like. Permanent darkness and endless expectations? Sure. Actually having a decent snow pack instead of a bunch of melting and freezing water around? Gotta wait a month I guess.