[luckyyouxx]

I see all of these posts about people who barely eat, if at all during the day. I can't help but be slightly jealous of everyones will power. I know that eating less is the problem, yet I would really really love to be able to say no to food like the rest of you posting lately.

I've been bulimic for a year, in a few months I went from 139lbs and now im anywhere between 119-121 depending on the day. I eat what most people i guess woudl be considered normal, 3 times a day. Mostly junk food though, I always having cravings. I'll want like a chocolate bar one day, chips and candy the next... I'll eat at my house, then go to my boyfriends and crave more food... its not like I'm completely over eating, its just that I cant seem to stop these damn cravings for food. I seem to like it too much, yet hate it at the very same time.

I want to be thinner, I want to feel good about myself and eating is just not helping me do that!!!
I almost want to ask someone for tips and tricks that keep their mind off food, I just can't seem hold myself back. But I really want to.

[Alaizabel]

I'm anorexic, so you probably don't want to hear this from me, but when I skip meals, it always helps me to have a drink always in my hand. Alot of times, if you can't stop eating, it isn't actually real hunger, it's just an oral fixation. So I always have a bottle of lemonade on hand and when I want food, I drink the lemonade. Also, mints, especially the soft dinner mints that you can get at Wal Mart for like 88 cents, helps stem the appetite. Usually it's with any mints but those are just the ones I prefer. Mint flavore dgum doesn't work though. It makes you just want food more. I'm Alaizabel by the way. Hi.

[Christina86]

This is a question that I feel compelled to ask, but will being thinner actually make you happier? That's something that can be seen as a very bad thought pattern to be stuck in.

Do you have a T or someone to talk to about this? I know that a lot of people have EDs because of life circumstances/trauma/low self-esteem, and if you can identify the cause (or trigger) then sometimes it makes it easier to overcome the disorder. It isn't easy by any means, but it is possible.

((((((((((((luckyyouxx))))))))))))))

[luckyyouxx]

Hey,
Thank you both. Alaizabel, nice to meet you, I'm Ashley. Those sound like they are great ideas. It must be an oral fixation because I find sometimes I eat even when I'm full and don't really want more. It's just because its there that I eat it. Also, I always have tried the gum so maybe this next time i'll buy some mints.

Hi Christina,
In a sense, yes, if I was thinner I would feel better about myself and my appearance. I would'nt skip college classes or even a chance to go to the bank, like I do now. I've just started up with a therapist, a few sessions ago, and it makes sense to me now why I throw up, but I havent figured out completely why I want to be skinnier. I started this about a year ago when I kept getting used by several guys...they'd pretend I was in relationships with them for about 3 months each and then at the end they said they were just using me for sex. Thats what triggered it, and then I ate so much over the summer to make myself feel better. But when I came back home my family kept telling me that I gained weight and I felt horrible about it, and from then on I have been trying to lose it, and so far have lost 20lbs as mentioned. Fortunatly I know have a very loving boyfriend of 6 months, but he is 2 years younger then me, and him and his friends hang out with girls even younger then that (17 or 18yr olds), they are all so super skinny and pretty, I feel like I can't compete.

Anyhoo, Thank you for your post. Have a wonderful day.

[ginniesky]

i know how you feel i am bulemic as well. been that way of and on since high school... i hope you can find what you are truly looking for.