[SelfHarmLove]

I don't have an eating disorder nor do i want one. I do have problems with food sometimes though. Whenever i get something to eat i swear my parents or whoever is around me thinks i'm eating way too much and are thinking i'm fat and i shouldn't eat. Also sometimes i'll stop eating for like 5 days but then i give in, i feel like i can have all or nothing. If i eat then i can't eat healthy, which makes me eat bad and i gain weight, but when i starve it's like i can control that, it makes me not hungry and hungry at the same time, idk if i'm making any sense. I also won't exercise if i'm eating but when i starve i'll exercise, it's just like really annoying. Dieting and exercise take forever, it takes months to work, and i've never been able to stick to it, if i stop eating i lose 5-10 pounds, and i don't gain it back for awhile. Why can't i just eat healthy and make myself exercise. Sorry for the rant, I just needed to get this out there i guess.

[Christina86]

(((((((SelfHarmLove)))))))))))))

Your "yoyo" dieting/bingeing concerns me a bit... that can lead to problems where you can fully develop an eating disorder that is very hard to stop by yourself (my opinion, and I'm not a medical professional)

I've seen you post in Self Injury, right? Control can be a big issue in self-injury and eating disorders because it gives us a sense of control over something when other things in our lives suck (or are hard) and we don't feel like we're in control of our own life.

Have you talked to your T about this? Perhaps you can ask to see a dietician as well if you're concerned about the types of food you eat?

Be careful, and take care of yourself.

[wishfulmuscle]

i can relate! im a sports enthusiast so im always out doing something, and i love not eating.. it makes me feel so strong, and in control. But i realize i have to, to have the energy i need to be so active.. when i can't eat healthy and i neeeed to eat, i binge on bad things, and purge... its an aweful thing to kick but it was so easy to start.. careful lovey that you dont let things get too out of control like i did!

[SelfHarmLove]

Just to clear up a bit i don't binge lol, i just don't want you getting mixed up, just when i eat i eat bad stuff, sometimes i overeat but it's not like a person that binge's would, i've never eaten over 3,000 calories in a day as far as i know.

[me05]

that is how I started my eating disorder. I wouldn't eat for a week or so, the I would just gain everything back be pretty much being a vaccuum. I am also a sports enthusiest. I'm also hoping to go to a really good college for softball. But I also know that if I don't get my bulimia under control, then it will never happen. That's what gives me the drive to attempt to stop, even though it is extremely hard. Maybe if you made some type of a goal that you can't reach unless your healthy. So maybe this bad eating that you have won't turn into a disorder. Good luck.