[bannie3]

Hi I am a little unsure about this forum. Not sure what to expect. I found this sight because I wanted to know if anyone here can understand me. My doctor "claims" that I am suffering from anorexia. I don't feel like I am, I just want to look good and shed some pounds. I am frightened to get on meds. to stimulate my appetite because I might not have control over the portions and number of meals I am consuming. I hate that everytime I am around family member they are always constantly shoving food in my face! I think that is so rude!! My family always lectures me and they seem to think that I can just flip a switch and eat everything in sight. This has just spiraled into a huge ordeal and it's not. Why don't my family understand that when I am hungry I will eat. How would they like it if I was constantly asking them to eat, it would annoy them like it annoys me. Now so they stop HOUNDING me I just tell them " oh I just ate before I got here", then they stop. I don't know what to do. Does anyone feel the way I do, or has anyone had similar experiences?

[piscesmom]

Hi,
I am a 39 year old wife and mother of two. I get what you are saying. I am struggling with admitting I am anorexic because I feel too fat to be anorexic, but I am below the lowest weight for my height on the charts, I know I am in trouble. It takes alot to admit that you need help and the fear of gaining weight is what has kept me from getting help but this week I am going on two intake appointments for eating disorder support groups because I can not stop losing weight. I have maintained this weight for a month by barely eating and exercising heavily but I want to lose more, but I am scared of landing up in the hospital or having a heart attack. I don't know what kind of advice to give you, I just want you to know I understand what you have written, my family is the same way - they are trying to help in their own way, they care- and you are certainly not alone.
Keep posting and I am sure you will make some friends here and get the support that you need.

[Alaizabel]

I understand. I'm anorexic too apparently. My family shoves food at me too and it just makes me miserable and I hate myself for eating. I feel like I don't have any self-control even when all I eat that day is a bearclaw. I feel worthless everytime I put something in my mouth. People make such a big deal about us eating but really, pushing food on us is just making the situation worse. Sometimes, I even get sick if I eat full meals. I just can't hold them.

[bannie3]

Thank you for understanding my frustration. My doctor has threatened to send me to facility to get help but I am still nursing my 15 month old so I keep using that as an excuse. My BMI is 17 and I am very proud of that even though he says that a BMI of 17 is dangerous. But thanks again!

[bannie3]

I also feel very sick when I actually do eat something. It feels good not eating, but when I feel light headed or that I am getting grumpy I eat and I feel so sick. I have NEVER purged. And I NEVER will. I hate throwing up and that is something I know I would never bring myself to do. I'd rather take deep breaths to keep the food down than to purge.