[mary39]

so i've been on a really strict diet lately and i've lost a noticeable amount of weight. 7kg over the past month and in the past week (of which i've stopped starving myself and have started diet) i've been losing a kg every two days. People keep telling me that its enough and i need to stop but i dont feel like i can at the moment. I'm terrified of any fried foods and ive been cooking all my dinners in the oven without any oil/butter, and my calories everyday vary between 300 and 700 a day. I mean, technically i've been eating a breakfast, lunch and dinner everyday (except yesterday i skipped dinner, and my breakfasts consist of one apple) but i'm still losing weight and i WANT to. I'm at a healthy weight now though so i don't know where this obsession is coming from. i'm currently 16 years old, 168 cm tall approx and as of today 64 kg which is healthy and i know it is so why all this? I've been exercising heaps too, especially when i've had dinner and i feel full. I wake up early every morning just to exercise. I'm so scared that i'm going to fall back into my old habits. But nobody's noticed (or they just don't care) because i'm "eating" and as long as i'm "eating" everythings fine, even though the calories i consume everyday are way too low and i know it yet i'm purposefully keeping it that way. I'm so terrified that one day my body will refuse to keep losing weight this way. I think i'm going crazy yeah? I don't want to feel like this. I'm actually terrified to touch any food thats not fruit, vegetables, healthy/something i prepared myself.
Should i be worried?

[darkrunner]

(((((((Mary)))))))

It sounds like you know the answer to your question, "should I be worried"

I pulled out some of the statements in your post that concerned me - take a look at them:

i dont feel like i can at the moment....
I'm terrified of any fried foods .....
don't know where this obsession is coming from....
so scared that i'm going to fall back into my old habits....
I'm so terrified that one day my body will refuse to keep losing weight this way....
I think i'm going crazy....
I'm actually terrified to touch any food .......

When you say you are terrified, scared, going crazy, etc, this says to me you have a disordered thinking about food and your weight loss.
Are you seeing a T or doctor about this yet?
It is good that you are eating and are at a healthy weight, but you might need some extra support figuring out why you have these fears and compulsions. It is possible that if you don't address them it could progress to the point where you are not healthy anymore.
take care of yourself,
ktgirl

[mary39]

i didnt realise i sounded like that

[darkrunner]

((((((((mary)))))))))
have you ever talked to a T or counselor?
Is there someone you can talk to?
I am concerned about you.
Feel free to PM me if you ever think it would help.....

kt

[mary39]

i'm just seeing the school counsellor around once every two weeks which hasnt helped at all because we never talk about weight and food.
thanks for the reply though

[darkrunner]

Mary,
You are motivated to get help for this....I can tell by the things you say and just the fact that you are posting here.
Sometimes it is necessary to take control of your treatment, and be very direct and assertive about what you need help with.
Can you tell you counselor that you need to meet more often, and that you are having this kind of trouble with eating?
Or, you could even print out your post and show it to her?
I know it is scary, but I think it would be so helpful for you if you had some support for this IRL.

kt

[Debbie V]

Mary,
What you are saying sounds so familliar to me about oh 25yrs ago. you know that what you are doing is not right, you answered it youself. 300 to 700 cal a day is not near what you need. You are still growing and can really do damage to yourself. You need to talk to someone. I'm worried about you and think your worried about yourself as well, which, is a good thing believe it or not. know that you are not alone and if ever need to talk, drop me a line. But you need to talk to a proffesional sweetie, I know it is not always easy but its a step in the right direction.

Blessed Be
Deb

Originally Posted by mary39

so i've been on a really strict diet lately and i've lost a noticeable amount of weight. 7kg over the past month and in the past week (of which i've stopped starving myself and have started diet) i've been losing a kg every two days. People keep telling me that its enough and i need to stop but i dont feel like i can at the moment. I'm terrified of any fried foods and ive been cooking all my dinners in the oven without any oil/butter, and my calories everyday vary between 300 and 700 a day. I mean, technically i've been eating a breakfast, lunch and dinner everyday (except yesterday i skipped dinner, and my breakfasts consist of one apple) but i'm still losing weight and i WANT to. I'm at a healthy weight now though so i don't know where this obsession is coming from. i'm currently 16 years old, 168 cm tall approx and as of today 64 kg which is healthy and i know it is so why all this? I've been exercising heaps too, especially when i've had dinner and i feel full. I wake up early every morning just to exercise. I'm so scared that i'm going to fall back into my old habits. But nobody's noticed (or they just don't care) because i'm "eating" and as long as i'm "eating" everythings fine, even though the calories i consume everyday are way too low and i know it yet i'm purposefully keeping it that way. I'm so terrified that one day my body will refuse to keep losing weight this way. I think i'm going crazy yeah? I don't want to feel like this. I'm actually terrified to touch any food thats not fruit, vegetables, healthy/something i prepared myself.
Should i be worried?

[mary39]

thanks so much for the replies, they're really helpful