Weight Loss and Exercise #4

I got some mens small sweatpants today. I’m not sure what happened. Why my clothes got bigger. This morning I went to wear one of my flannel hoodies I got in august and it was big on me. Like really big. It fit when I got it and I haven’t lost that much weight. So I had to return both of the ones I got and the stores didn’t have any let alone a small. But I got some camouflage pants which were decent.

I haven’t been eating very good these past few days. I’ve been eating enough quantity wise just not quality wise. Like today for breakfast I had 3 mac and cheese bites, a chocolate Payday, and a full calorie Mountain Dew. At 1:30 this morning I had a glass of iced coffee. So that was 808 calories just for breakfast. Then I tried making up for it but I ended up eating 5 weird flavored Oreos for lunch. I also had a large diet vanilla Dr. Pepper. I did have some soup as an afternoon snack. But I drained the broth and just ate the noodles. So I’m at 1,340 calories minus whatever for the broth. I was going to have some butternut squash noodles for dinner. So I’m around 1,540 calories. Which is enough to lose but the quality was just not good and I’m not sure how to get motivated to eat better. Fixing meals for myself is still hard and I don’t like having my mom do it for me because she’s done so much. So it’s easier for me to grab a package of Oreos instead of steam a bag of corn.

I had an instant cup of mac and cheese and a 20oz Vanilla Coke for breakfast. I had a little container of mixed berries and a protein shake for a morning snack. I got Chinese food which will be for both lunch and dinner. I’m roughly around 1300 calories. But I’ve had my carbs, fruit, and protein and I had a zero sugar Gatorade and a bottle of light body armor. So I’ve had electrolytes and other vitamins too.

My weight has gone up a little bit. But I've been sick and had soup with all that sodium. I hope it's just water weight and will go back down. I feel pretty sad about it. I worked so hard to get to 270.

My weight is still between 164 and 168. I’ve been lacking protein so I ordered some protein shakes from Sams Club. They aren’t meant for weight loss just for when you need fast protein. At least that’s what I’m using them for. Everyone tells me I need to eat more protein. I did buy some generic brand slim fast yesterday as well and my mom found some Atkins shakes in the garage that are still good. I didn’t have a ton to eat today. I had a protein shake and a slim fast. Then I had a lunch size serving of fettuccine and a couple bites of spaghetti. My mom is making potato soup for dinner. I didn’t have any regular soda but I had a small bottle of Ocean Spray cran energy.

I am trying to lose weight but I’m not in a rush. I’d like to get these food restriction related meltdowns under control. That food restriction incident on Sunday night that resulted into the poison control center being called Monday morning made me realize that I have an issue.

It was a late night last night and I really wanted McDonald’s. I think the only thing that was opened though was Taco Bell. So I just came home and fell asleep. Today I had a protein shake and 3 cans of zero sugar soda for breakfast. I got coffee and I had some Greek yogurt and a little cup of macaroni and cheese for lunch. Now I’m eating a can of potato’s. My mom is making some kinda chicken that she mixes in with Greek yogurt and Parmesan cheese. I’m just really glad she’s not making another pork roast like she always does when the family is over for dinner. It’s either pork roast or chicken but at least this time it’s not just plain chicken. Right now I’m at about 1210 calories with the chicken added in. I have to get my weekly shot tonight and it always makes me hungry the next day. Im feeling it right now being without it but I wish I could wait until tomorrow night. I’m at 165 right now and I’d like to get to at least 162 by the end of the month.

I'm up a couple of pounds. But that's what happens and then I lose 3 pounds. I've been walking and eating well.

Yeah I got the shot at like 1:30 yesterday afternoon and by 2PM I was ravenous and I am up 5 pounds today. Today I have a plan set out so I’m eating throughout the day. I also don’t plan on taking my 20mil Geodon early like I did yesterday since that can cause issues. And I don’t plan on getting coffee since that can also make me hungrier.

Basically regular soda, coffee, chocolate, and my weekly shot makes me hungry. And taking my med early.

So far I’ve had a protein drink and a Campbells Sip And Go tomato soup.

I've been craving soup. I don't think that's good for me. I gain weight with soup. I did walk some today.

I was hungry and crabby and I ate a giant 420 calorie pumpkin muffin. But I’ve been doing good and still staying on track. I plan on having a can of potato’s for dinner and a sugar free pudding for a snack. I upped my calories to 1,350 to see if that would help.

But I really want to take my Geodon right now and it would probably help me a lot but I’m trying to hang on for at least another hour

Ugh i got a dozen cans of sweet potato puree that are no bueno! I love real sweet potatoes - they have texture - but these are just gross. Maybe if i get a bunch of mini marshmallows! Idk if anything can be done to salvage these. I might donate them at xmas. People could make pie.

The white sliced potatoes, i just make a half cup of cream of mushroom soup, pour it over, and i have a good dinner.

I like the steam in the shrink wrap sweet potato’s. Or the steam in the bag mini ones. Purple sweet potato’s are amazing you have to go to an Asian grocery store or Whole Foods for those though.

I just eat canned white potato’s straight up. I put them in a bowl and cook them in the microwave for 2 minutes. It really grosses people out for some reason.

I need to be careful with those sugar free puddings. The chocolate is fine on my stomach but I’ve had 2 of the vanillas today and I’ve had cramps all afternoon. The vanilla is very bland but the chocolate is pretty good.

I hid the scale again. I’m going to try really hard not to weigh myself for 2 weeks. I don’t do noom anymore so weighing myself everyday is not necessary. I never really agreed with that in the first place. I feel like weighing myself once a week is the best.

The calories on the SF pudding is not much of a saving. I think its just that the "bad" sugar guarantees you wont overeat! Stuff is brutal! OTOH, it keeps me regular!

My weight was 169. I was hoping to be 167. It takes one day to gain 5 pounds and a week to lose it. Yeah I know I said I wouldn’t weigh myself but I honestly don’t get it. But I had a lot of sodium yesterday. So far today I’ve had a 420 calorie muffin at 3:30AM so I should probably eat something now. I didn’t have the energy to make it to the grocery store and I need some stuff but I can wait another day. My mom bought $500 worth of beef and I prefer meat from cans. I am strange.

My therapist who knows about EDs says I should be eating more protein and my mom has said the same thing. The only way I know how to eat a ton of protein is to chug a 30gram protein drink. She had suggested them and even gave me one during our session last Monday. So I ordered a case of cake batter flavored ones but I sent it to the wrong address. I got it fixed but now it’s not coming until Tuesday.

The scale has gone up some more. I don't get it. I am very stressed and I have been sick. So maybe that's why.

I was 168 today and I was surprised because I ordered pizza and cheesy bread for lunch yesterday and I had some ice cream. So far today I had some white cheddar goldfish and a chili cheese dog and a sugar free pudding. I also had a glass of iced coffee and 3 diet Dr. Peppers with vanilla syrup flavoring. I had a chobani pumpkin yogurt too. I have 200 calories left and I may just have an English muffin with some apple butter for dinner. I’m not sure exactly what can be made with 200 calories. 3oz of chicken maybe. Or a salmon filet has 100 calories

My mom said she’s making salmon anyways. So I can have that and another pudding or something for a snack.

The scale keeps going up. I know I'm very stressed and I'm not sleeping well. I'm trying to eat well and drink water. I have to be careful with exercise or I'll hurt myself. This is frustrating. I guess I just need to try to relax.

My doctor said to me today he could refer me to a weight loss clinic. I was not offended by his remark. He told me 168 pounds is not a lot. I know a weight loss clinic is more apt to send me to an eating disorder clinic then to take me seriously about weight loss. He prescribed topamax so I’ll see how that goes. I usually lose about 20 pounds on it but it loses its affect after a couple years. But with all my other med changes, that yeah I’ve done on my own, and the progress I’ve already made on my own in the last year I’m hoping all this will work out and I can reach my goal weight.

My therapist and I will also make a meal plan and she will work with me on this.

Topamax makes soda taste really bad though. But I need to give it up anyways. It’s not healthy and I’ve been drinking a lot of it.

I haven't been as focused on losing weight lately due to some mental health troubles. But I'm trying to get back into it. I took a long walk today. I ate unhealthily but I plan on trying to do a little better with that tomorrow.

I don't know what my weight loss goal at this point is. I'm 158 lbs. I want to be around 120 or less but it's hard to lose weight considering all the meds I'm on. I guess the best I can do is try my best, eat healthy, and keep exercising.

I lost a couple of pounds. So I'm glad. But I'm still up compared to where I was last week. At least I'm moving in the right direction again. I will try to walk today. And I will be careful about what I eat. I think I need to stay away from soups.

I'm almost 200 pounds. I gained the 30 pounds I lost last year back. I am petite, so I should be around 104 to 135 pounds. I have a BMI of >35. I'm so upset, but my chronic fatigue syndrome coupled with my other issues are preventing me from exercising. Also, when I read "The Obesity Code" book that one of my physician assistants handed me over a year ago, I was disheartened to read the part where those with PTSD and sleep problems will continue to have metabolic disorder (obesity) because of how it relates to our hormones. Even if I did the intermittent fasting that the book calls for, I would still be struggling (like I am now) with obesity. I don't know if I have diabetes or not, nor do I know if I have insulin resistance or the like. I do know that my dissociative disorder includes things like my inability to detect when I'm hungry or when I'm full. I have difficulty feeling my body, though I do feel the pain from time to time. I also have trouble with distention, not just feeling bloated. It's different from feeling full, which I can't feel anymore. I may overeat because I can't feel when I'm hungry or full. I've also went days without eating and haven't felt hungry, but would feel my body and head ache, which was an indicator that my levels of whatever were low. I had to get IVs and go to the ER at those times.

I really don't know how to lose the weight and keep the weight down. I'm trying to deal with improving my PTSD and sleep, as well as my dissociation, but all of those things contribute to metabolic disorder (obesity).

I'm open to any suggestions.

I was 166 today. For breakfast I had a bran muffin with a tablespoon of apple butter and a serving of Hershey chocolate iced coffee. For a snack I had a serving of Keystone ground beef and a sugar free strawberry jello. For lunch I had an unwich from Jimmy Johns with extra ham, extra provolone, extra tomato’s, and no mayonnaise. I’m not sure on the rest of the day. I’m supposed to be getting a shipment of protein shakes but I’m not sure they will arrive today. I have 300 calories left though for the day.

I have had a lot of luck with sugar free and zero sugar products. I know they aren’t really good for you but I haven’t had an issue. But filling up on sugar free or zero sugar soda and juice has really helped me out these last few months.

I mainly just have to watch my sodium. So I can’t eat a lot of soup or other canned stuff. But if you can handle it then broth is good. Hot flavored tea is good too.

I was told about the negatives of sugar-free items, but I swear that is how I lost 75 pounds before - well, 10 years ago, when I had more energy and walked every day, but still.

I just recently decided to go back to using sugar-free items, to see if that helps me lose at least the first 5 to 10 pounds. I can't do much walking or exercise, but I am trying to pace myself and do the MOVE motto from the VA - that is, not focusing on exercise, but rather movement (which also burns calories).

I'm taking it one step at a time with changing my diet. Hopefully I can be as healthy as you all are one day.

I stayed under both my carbs and my sodium today. I went over my protein but that’s the thing to go over if you do go over something. I use the free my fitness pal app. I had an Atkins shake and my last light and fit Greek yogurt for dinner. I was at 1325 calories for the day.

Some lady lost 200 pounds in 15 months. That is dedication. She had to get skin removal surgery. I wonder if her insurance paid for it.