Depressed? Insane? Or just..... different?

Hello, I'm new here,but this has been bugging me for a while, I just need to get this out of my chest, cuz I have never spoken this to anyone close to me.

Here goes.... "deep breath"

I'm 23 years old this year, I'm employed(prefer not to say my occupation), but I enjoy my work. But since High school and university, I noticed I'm a little.... different from others.
While others have been enjoying the fullest out of their lives, I have been thinking a lot and kept asking questions, and these questions are abnormal.
Like
"What's my purpose in this world? "
"why was I born into this world?"

Ever since then, I've been putting the priority and the well-being of all others above my own. I felt like I don't deserve happiness, I should shoulder the burden of others and make them happy. I could not find a purpose in my life, so I have been focused on a mission to consistently helping others.

I still do enjoy the simplest pleasures in life, but I don't have any infatuations or obsessions. Normally, a person would be happy when they were offered money, but I'm just like "it's just money". That doesn't mean I don't need money, I meant that I only need money to live my life, I do not wish for a luxurious life or a happy life.

So should I be worried? Am I depressed or insane?
Or I'm just different?

Hello bryanblade, welcome to Psych Central.

I think it is good to have an enquiring mind as long as you are not ruminating in a negative way on things. Putting everyone else above yourself can feel good to an extent but you do deserve to be happy just as anyone else. If you are constantly helping others, then you also need to do good self-care and look after yourself otherwise you won't be any good for anybody.

It's hard to tell online but you do sound a little down, maybe you would like to try these online quizzes Psychological Tests and Quizzes to get more of an idea of what is going on with you and you can try the The Sanity Score - Test Your Mental Wellness You sound like a lovely sensitive person to me.

Hey I am new to this, I know what your going through I always feel useless and wondering why I am here your not insane at all probley a form of depression which is making you feel this way. X

Comparing yourself to an unconfirmed perception is usually not a good habit. If you have these questions and counts why couldn't your associates also have them? Why do you assume perfection?

Committing your life to others could be a noble endeavor. But it sounds like you are ignoring your own needs and that may be unhealthy and not in your best interests.

You seem normal to me. Confused about what your next step in life might be though. Its a perfect time to contact your university and see what services they offer for alumni.

hi bryanblade
my old therapist would say you are having an existential crisis. this is just a fancy word for trying to find meaning in life. it is totally normal. it doesnt mean you are weird in any way. some people never question life. it just means you are looking for something deeper. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome

hey brianblade,
I don't know if this will give you any insight or not, but could you're feeling crazy for asking these questions be cultural? These are very normal questions to ask in the western world. I don't think it's a better or worse way to be, I'm just trying to give some possible insight.

Hello bryanblade: You sound pretty normal to me! When I first began reading your post, I thought you were going to say you dream of becoming a duck-billed platypus or something! Perhaps your priorities are different from other people your age whom you know. It can feel uncomfortable to have a different perspective on things than do most of the other people around you. But that doesn't mean you have a mental illness. In fact the characteristics you describe are, for the most part, attributes the world could use more of! Is this the extent of your concerns?

BryanBlade, you sound so much like a friend that I know. Other people were amassing fortunes and building houses, getting married and they were working on figuring out the purpose in life. They considered it normal and thought everyone else to be strange not asking those questions.

Someone wrote, the secret to happiness is being happy with just enough.

If you do have issues to work on, I hope you do keep asking what the purpose of life is.

Meditation has provided an avenue for me to take questions like that into meditation and then find a quiet place and listen to see what I hear. Sometimes nothing but sometimes a feeling of well being that really inspired me.

You are comfortable in your own skin. That is a real gift. Thanks for sharing your story.

Thank you, guys, really appreciated the welcome and your company here.

The sole concept of my being/existence has always been a pain. And I do think I may be suffering from existential crisis.

My whole life has been dedicated not to myself but to others, especially my parents. My whole idea of being born into this world is like a gift , and I have to repay my debt for being born to my parents. My sole purpose is to make them happy and let them live a happy life. If I don't , then I'm nothing but a burden.

A therapist may help you understand your early childhood expriences and the orgin of those notions you have. Learn more about who you are.

Bryan, funny but I talked to that friend I mentioned and they said the same feeling of obligation to the parents. The sad thing with them is that no matter how hard that friend tried to satisfy parental expectations, they slipped further from their own hopes and dreams and the parents were never satisfied.

By the way, in my book you never are a burden. I really appreciate your candor and sharing your story. You have definitely helped me to understand myself better. Thank you.