Dislike of sunlight

For the past several years, I have developed an aversion to sunlight. Like this morning I am hungry, but I don't want to go outside due to the sunlight. It seems to be worse when I'm depressed, and I am depressed almost every day. I get a few hours of relief from the depression by riding my exercise bike and feeling good afterwards.

I live and work in a warehouse with no windows. I have no commute, and my workday starts before the sun rises and ends after the sun sets (this time of year). Part of my job is to dispatch people who are on call 24x7x365 so I constantly carry a cell phone that rings every hour or so and I always have a pen and paper in my pocket for taking notes. A year ago, I had a weekend off when a friend visited. Thanksgiving, Christmas, it doesn't matter - ring, ring, ring.

I can't get to sleep at night until midnight and then I must wake up before 5:30 AM for work at 6:00 AM. I wonder if this is sunlight related. I'm thinking of buying an artificial sunlight lamp, but I hate sunlight. I was also thinking of forcing myself to go for a walk in the sun today.

I've heard some people become afraid to go outside. That might be part of what is happening with me, but it's mostly sunlight I dread.

Has anybody else felt this way?

on a bad day or longer amount of time, i get depressed and don't want the sun shine on my rainy day, after all i deserve it. it reminds me of everybody having a good time and i am not.

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Originally Posted by avlady on a bad day or longer amount of time, i get depressed and don't want the sun shine on my rainy day, after all i deserve it. it reminds me of everybody having a good time and i am not.

This is kind of the case for me...I think. I hate how much we get so much sun, that sometimes I don't want to see it for awhile. I mean, like you said, it can remind me of everyone out "enjoying" it.

So, when I'm in a bad mood, the sun can sometimes make it worse. But I hear how the sun is supposed to elevate your mood. Anyway, it gets monotonous to me, not to mention the risk of skin cancer.

Other times I want the sun cause it CAN make my apartment less depressing. I don't get enough natural light, so on rainy days, it can make me more depressed. It's hard to explain.

Gloomy days can make it harder for me to do certain chores in my place, like vacumning, a depressing chore to begin with. But it can go with my MOOD.

I don't know....I wish we had more variety in our weather here, and that my apartment got more natural light regardless of my mood. It's cheaper than turning on so many lights which I have to do on days like that.

Thanks, everybody. At least I know that other people feel this way too sometimes.

I went for a walk outside. It was cloudy, but I still got some sunlight.

My mother bought me a potted Christmas tree, so I need to buy a grow-light to keep it from dying.

I never went out last summer. Before work my boyfriend would pick me up and take me outside on the porch to hug and kiss me. It was sweet of him. but I HATED it.

Is it being outside that bothers you or being in the sunlight? Like can you be near a window on a sunny day?

Vitamin D is important, and I think your body won't be healthy without some sunlight. Maybe you can buy a lamp that simulates sunlight and have dim sunlight all day long, so you get vitamin D?

My problem seems to be partly anger that I cannot enjoy the sun like I used to when I was younger and had a different job.

What helped me was to remember all the plants, animals, and people that need and enjoy a sunny day. That helped me feel less angry to be in the sun. FWIW

I think it's my exposure to being outside around people. even if they are in their own houses. Even a passing car makes me shake.

In that case, maybe you can buy a sunlight lamp to keep yourself healthy until hopefully the psychological issues are fixed to allow you to be outside more? It might be as simple as buying a special light bulb for an existing light fixture. I need to do that also, because there are no windows where I spend most of my time and I shun going outside.

Well I guess I should mention I will be moving to N.C. (The Triangle) soon so I won't have much of a choice. I don't think my fair skin can take it!! thank you for the advice though.

Is it sunlight or is it the day?

the day. apparently that was too short of an answer