I am not from the US so we don't have laws against discrimination against the mentally ill.

I am called

by some really genius folks in my used-to be classroom... so they think I am retarded. I am not, in fact I think I am fairly brilliant in my own right. I know some computer programming, have interest in medicine and human biology.

. It may be my Messiah complex. I will do everything it takes to become a doctor, if I get to save lives on a daily basis.

The thing is it hurts. I am very emotionally detached but I became suicidal that they judge me because of my biological problems. I overdosed on risperidone because they celebrated my birthday just to manipulate me into giving them money. Why? Because my parents, who are old now, fought and beat each other. I was reminded of my childhood. They've been doing the same ****ing thing for the last seventeen years. They are responsible for my terrible cognition, poor judgement, brain damage, inability to do anything at all.


So then again, why should I be framed for rest of my life because I cannot do one thing properly? Because I am continuing my education? Or because I recognized their manipulative intent and told them to **** off despite my extreme anxiety? Shouldn't I have been manipulated so easily? Turns out I have more knowledge of psychology than they do , and hence for them it is almost impossible to manipulate me.

Why are we, the mentally ill, discriminated against? In fact I am so afraid of discrimination by my peers I am afraid to go to college. I am very afraid. So much I am trying to get into med school where discrimination is less likely. But will I get accepted? Will I score enough? Would I complete the med school? Would I specialize in a field of my choice? Would my hands come in my way of becoming a surgeon?

I just want to tell those who hate me because of my MENTAL DISORDERS to fk off. It's okay to hate me for my stupid behavior, but it is not okay to mock someone's mental illness. Especially when he is trying to do good to the society...

Oh God... how a person that doesn't know me is supposed to understand what I meant in this thread. Due to my thought disorder I fail to understand that I need to explain in detail and I forget the previous sentence while writing the current....

They (my used-to-be classmates) downloaded this song on their iPod and used to mock me and play it in front of me because of my mental health problems. I wish I could've gotten something in revenge, but I think God did his revenge... I hope they die when they get sick.

I can totally understand what you mean about in this thread.
I’m sorry for your struggles.
I feel similar tbh.
Things have moved on a little around discrimination and stigma but not near enough.
I feel particularly stigma, it keeps me indoors a lot.

Fearing being judged is a big thing for me, I was bullied at school Home and in the workplace and I guess it stems from that, I’m not looking back but it came from somewhere I’m sure..
Every good wish to you

Hello Red daisy, thank you for your kind words.

I fully agree it isn't worse as it used to be, but it still needs a lot of improvement... people give me awkward stares all the time, and most of my peers laugh at me... it's hard living like this, especially when you still live in a dysfunctional family... which aggregates your anxiety. And I am like "Wish me luck to get selected in med school."

What nobody understands is that I am a human, just like 'em. I have my demons, I am not "normal", like others... I have a different brain. But why should it make me a lesser person? They laugh at me due to my inexperience in socialization, I would have laughed too, but it isn't a joke, it's someone suffering and they're having a good laugh.


I am their emotional punching bag. They sort of force me to absorb their negative energy. Which affects my cognition. Which in turns affects my dreams. Which affects my career. Which affects my life...

One of the reasons I want to get in med school is because I'll finally get a chance to escape from the extremely toxic environment I call home. But due to all anxiety and stress, I forget what I memorize and practice. So it's more likely me vs the world now. My classmates don't make it any more easy to study, as they're the main cause of my concern. (I am in a B.S program now. I am going a step back and trying to get admission to MBBS, by re-giving the medical entrance exam.)

Yes I agree with you, so much improvement needed still
And I’m so sorry for how you are treated, no one should be treated that way.

you have as much right as they to a life free of ridicule ! People can be so awful ...I do hope we can have better times, at least keeping the strength and hope to pursue our dreams or desires..we deserve to and have a right to.
It must be very difficult for you, I’m sending vibes of strength your way.

My best wishes to you.

[*Laurie*]

Hi Chemist, I'm curious to know in which country you live?

I live in India.