Checking in ( How do you feel today)?

im with tinkerbell.
i feel pretty mentally ill today.

hearing voices

bla no rest for the wicked i suppose. and having my phone with me while laying down in bed doesn't help. i'm a little annoyed the apt ppl did the fire alarm test with out notice for some reason i woke up before it happened and was annoyed my S/O didn't do what he said he'd do- put the steak away we never have good meat so i was upset at first but it was still warm in the oven, so i let that go, perhaps he knew it be ok and i'm over reacting? any ways many hugs for those who need em. i may go to the computer or i may just lay around idk. been a little sad lately thinking i'm meant to be alone. deep thought. i know i'm in a relationship- how could i think that right? blah

sad, hurt, nervous

Alright and a little tired.

Feel torn in two directions. Tuesday at the surgeons appointment I found out I can't have the simple surgery. My back is too unstable. I need a fusion. w/ a bone graph. He wants to enter from the side and the back, put a spacer, screws, and rods in my spine. I'm not afraid of dieing although that is a "side effect" it's a lot better than living with some of the other side effects.

I have never felt so alone as I do now. Thanks to the economic crash of 2008 none of my family can afford to come and be with me. They lost their retirement savings, and what interest they get on other things barely helps them cover the cost of maintaining living-non of them are lavish. My oldest sister was suposed to retire, now she can't. My daughter will have her first child. It just goes on like that. I was suposed to move back after I lost my job, I was saving money for it, but as costs kept going up all my savings went, and now my car died and I've no way to get it fixed.

How do I feel...terrified, fatigued and powerless.

I feel calm, safe in my house (but nervous about having to head out), but also a little disconnected.

I went shopping with Mom to get supplies to feed all the people she invited so I'm feeling a little inept and overwhelmed with the weekend duties. Grandma used to handle family gatherings at the farm but I'm not her.

I feel relaxed since I don't have tto work this long weekend. A little irritated since my sons keep telling me they will pick up groceries and they have not done it yet.

i'm feeling kinda blah blah. I went and saw my step brother's football game today. Pretty bored right now. Not really feel like doing any much. I weighed myself today and not happy about the number that popped up. I really need to address this issue soon. I ate some pizza from Little Caesers after the game. Just blah.

I feel disheartened and anxious

Tired. No more nightmares tonight I pray. Looking forward to appt with T number 3 next week. Hope this one works. Why do the dreams come an

I'm tired! I'm still cooking for the family gathering tomorrow, Mom is inviting more people all the time. She's luring them in with the promise of homemade ice cream. This is the third time she's done this recently. First time zero showed up, last time two, should be interesting to see tomorrow.

I feel some mild pain in the abdomenal area but mostly bloating and gas. Wish I could figure this out.

Vulnerable.

I am aching and tired today. I have a bunch of leftovers in the freezer from the family get together today. Mom was mixed up and upset because everyone was not there immediately after our church got out. They had quite a way to drive to get here after they went to their own churches in another city. Finally turned out alright though.

I feel crappy -- angry and stressed out. I have so much work, and my son was sick yesterday, so I lost a lot of work time. And I'm really angry at my 15-year-old. She promised to help me keep my son occupied yesterday when he started feeling better and was bored and wanted to play board games, etc., and then when I asked for her help with this (after I'd played several game with him myself), she refused.

My schedule this week is packed; ugh. I don't see any relaxation in my near future.

I feel very panicked.

I notice there are no Mood Indicators for "Shot", "Exhausted", "Uninspired", or "Bewildered".

Back to work tomorrow...starting to feel emotionally dead in relation to work now.

Somewhere between who gives a rats and vague unease. Overall, par for the course. it's an ok day.

Agitated and Depressed.

depressed less having less headache gotta get more rest

I've been eating the leftover pie and bars and I feel a little sick. I'm afraid to weigh myself.

It's been a hectic weekend and a hectic day today. My head hurts and I'm tired. The closer the wellness summit gets the more scared I feel about going. I'm afraid someone has been messing with my account on one of the sites I go to. Generally crappy day today.

It's never going to end...I just wanna let it go. I just want to let him go.

I feel like I'm going nowhere fast.