Daily Comments #5- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

I'll be seeing a dermatologist again. I've been seeing them since I was 13. Although people don't believe me when they don't witness it themselves, I do have a serious skin condition, and as I write this the the left side of my face is all purple and swollen. My sister recommends I receive injections to the face to stop the swelling.

Goodness I hate my body .

Forgiveness shall always be received.

I'm on the same ride as well. Is that kid running the show going to stop it and release the seat restraints, so I can get off this thing? The Lazy River sounds better to me...

I don't know why I always end up feeling like I don't belong. I wonder if it would feel better to just cut myself off from the internet and just be alone.

AH! It is almost Christmas and I haven't even went grocery shopping for the big dinner we are having. I dread going to shop during these last few days. However, it is time for my from scratch cornbread dressing! I am always look for an excuse to pull out my late grandmother's recipe for dressing since I am the only one that she told about the recipe. I am keeping it close to the chest so that when either my niece or nephew start cooking, I can give them it.

My GI system and stomach have been a mess for over a week now with no sign of getting better. I have no idea what is causing it.

I have given up religion (again) so there will be no church this weekend even though it's Christmas time.

Christmas this year is turning out to be impossible. My middle brother gets out of alcohol rehab this year. He is a mean drunk. Mom has told him and his girlfriend (who is very nice) that they cannot spend Christmas with the family and that the family will not pick him up from the hospital and take him to his girlfriend's apt.

Also, I have been asked to drive mom to my youngest brother's home for the holiday. I drive maybe 2 days a year and am very out of practice. It is a 60 mile highway drive - I hate driving on the highway. Mom is the worst back seat driver ever and she makes me nervous. I have to travel 2 hours via mass transit to get to Mom's house. If I do, I will not be able to have a drink or have any dessert as I have epilepsy and am glucose intolerant. The wine will interfere with my anti-seizure med and make me sleepy. My youngest brother's wife is putting a lot of pressure on me but I am not up to it. I am contemplating staying home alone.

I'm so sad
Can't seem to get myself on and even course.
Working hard to keep functioning thru all the mixed up feelings.
Got up... Showered and dressed for the day.
Over thinking and trying to use some dbt skills.
Just wanna scream

Next time you point your finger, I might have to bend it back and break it, break it off.

JUST the kind of thread I can use right now!...

Dear World,

Just wanted to say, Christmas planning can be no fun. No fun whatsoever. I have decided to just not take the bait when my co-planners are testy and argmentative. I just am not interested in arguing. Even if they're being jerks. Water off a duck's back. Zen.

Love,

Slump

People need to learn to think before opening their mouths. One misplaced, random sentence from a person that comes across as mean or ignorant can ruin a whole day.

I'm not having fun in games today.

Why should I put it down for you? You don't put it up for me

Toilet seat?!

Why do people take something that should be peaceful, joyful, and loving and turn it into a stress and drama filled production?

That obvious? Should I duck or should I run?

He he! Made me laugh!

whew

Why, Why, Why? I hate Murphy's law.

Just got the Christmas money and the red check engine light pops on and the car starts juddering at 50mph!!

Could be something simple. If it's effecting the operation of the vehicle you should check it asap. A lot of vehicles have a self diagnostic mode accessed by the ignition key.

But I wish the entire Kardashian family and Leann Rimes would get off the stage. I think Kristin Stewart's affair with an old married guy was a scripted publicity stunt.I don't care about Jennifer Anniston or her manky ex or his manky baby mama.

I thought the police officer who jumped into that horrible cold water to save that woman is a hero and he sure could swim fast.

I hope I feel better tomorrow.

I need to get this out of my system. People who want to embrace an alphabet soup of diagnoses confound me. There is something about diagnosis that seems to me to be about excluding conditions. I am the sort of person who likes to look on the bright side, though, so I am never looking to fill my downside basket. If I have catatonia and restless leg syndrome, which is the bigger problem?

While I am at it, if someone already has problems: lack of education, inadequate housing, serious health issues (mental or physical), no or inadequate support (emotional or financial), an inability to support a family adequately; why oh why does that person have baby after baby? Babies are a delightful but huge responsibility. I grew up in a family that didn't need or want another baby. Every day I felt everything wrong in my family was my fault. People who want to bring something to 'fruition' can use birth control and instead give 'birth' to better education, a more secure homelife, loving the children they already have, working on their self-esteem issues by giving their genitals a rest.

Take a break if you have to, but don't cut yourself off. I've felt that way on many, many occasions and you as well as many others here have seen my up and down moods and the times when I wanted to totally isolate myself yet not be alone. The internet can be lonely...we don't actually "know" anyone, the "friendships" are distant, and it's easy to feel disconnected from the real world. But, at the same time, it's a heck of a lot better than actually BEING alone....and you DO belong, as well as anyone here....

I hate that I cannot competently discuss or debate controversial topics because my emotions always outrule my rational thinking. I know the facts, I've done the reading, I can back up how I feel, but when it comes right down to it, my emotions always rule the day....and what I say.

Some days things go together as if they were only waiting to be... some days every nail bends.

“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.” ~Paulo Coelho