Daily Comments #5- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

All of you guys are seriously the closest thing I have to a family right now. I hope things start looking up for all of you.

(((Hatter))))

That is the cutest pup, Buttercup!

We are already having intermitant sleet alternating with wet snow. Supposed to start sleeting in earnest this afternoon. I had the strangest dream. I forgot Grandma was dead many years and I woke up frantic because I didn't know where she was, couldn't find her. It took me a bit to collect the memories and remember what happened. I was actually thinking Mom had done something to her, had her sent somewhere.

I was in such a bad mood I scrolled right past the puppy. I need to cheer up...

I have gotten off to a bad start today. I am going to go to the gym and do some bike riding. After that, I don't know. I need to do some writing. And pay bills. And ironing. And cleaning and cooking. But, I am stuck. I hate my life so much that motivation is a problem. I continue to have sexual issues. I hate my orientation but it's not changeable. Religion is full of lies and is of no comfort. Therapists don't know what to tell me anymore. There are no cures or solutions.

I have a date soon to see a movie. We will choose which one when we get there.

Good luck Nicks and have fun

There is so much more to life than young girls struggling to constantly satisfy their boyfriends, and feeling like crud if their boyfriend gets so much as a frown on his callow face.

It's unfair how you can be feeling fairly well one moment, something unexpected happens, and it all just falls apart....

I want to go see the Mama movie. It looks scary. But I have no money left. Dad has to give me money to buy gas tomorrow. I won't have any money until the 8th. That sucks.

I am sick of going to school. I'm sick of work, too, but I have to do that. I want to come home from work and do things I want to do and enjoy myself, not grub for a grade and be sleep-deprived because I have more chapters to read and more papers to write.

I find myself wondering why he ever wanted me in his life. He doesn't seem to respect me or anything I do. I get fearful when I think all he ever wanted was a cook and a housekeeper. But it's the same conclusion I keep coming to.

I got a ton of stuff done yesterday. He knows I pushed through a lot of pain to get it done, and had gotten almost zero sleep the night before. And did I get any kind of congrats or support for this? None at all.

This is so boring, it's always the same routine. I try so hard, and never see any kind of benefit in doing it all.

No big surprise then that certain aspects of my depression refuse to lift.

I'd like to be more active in the Current Events forum – politics is my life! But I avoid it because I receive more than my fair share of hate mail on the Internet. You wouldn't believe how many times I've been called a 'terrorist' . It used to make me so frustrated, but now it doesn't, it's almost laughable actually, because it says way more about them than it does about me. Yes, I hold unconventional and highly stigmatized beliefs, but maybe it is time for something different.

Sometimes I think people don't like me because I am the opposite of what they expect a person to be…

Have fun Nicks

Had some good laughs at the movie and a chat with coffee afterward. It was a nice evening.

sleepy dream time...for all, i hope
night

Out of battery..... Will have to continue another time.....
Many well thoughts everyone

My insurance finally goes into effect on the 1st, so I can finally get help again! I'm going back to where I always went for help, they were always good to me. I'm getting my teeth fixed (loads of cavities) because my one molar hurts so bad that I can't chew on it. I can finally go to the doctor and not worry about how I'm going to pay for it. And best of all, my generic prescriptions are now free. I only take generics, but even if I took a name brand, it's only 5 bucks. Thank God for this. 4 years without insurance has been awful. My medical bills are outrageous.

Good Morning Everybody! No work or school because of the icy roads and fog. I'm glad I don't have to go in, I don't feel good today at all.

I hate living like this....always scared about what would be the consequense of my actions. I want to be strong...not scared, assertive not passive, confident not self doubting......

^^^^^ I would LOVE a pup delivered to me! So CUTE! ^^^^^^^^

Thanks Buttercup, that made me smile---something I thought would be impossible, today.

I hate when I go out of my way in an attempt to help someone out and I don't get as much as a thanks or even hear back from them.

Yes, I am avoiding calling my attorney to discuss the demand I sent him. My partner in crime with this "avoidance" is my husband. Honestly, he triggers both of us and if others here could sit across from him you would definitely see why.

Sigh....

I crochet as good as I knit. Which isn't saying much..