Daily Comments #5- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

I feel I have lost my voice. I'm unable to speak for fear of revealing too much about my life and current situation.

Keeping it to myself is so hard, but it's all I know.

When can I talk? Will I ever?

I know that very same feeling, shlump. I am still trying to teach myself not to try to be everything to everybody and hide myself from the world. It is said that only by revealing the true self, can we find out who really likes us for who we really are. But, I know it is easier said, than done.

http://blogs.psychcentral.com/nlp/20...ind-15-things/


ouch... (actually this type of stuff I think about a lot with myself)

but what if you have seen the knife in your hands for years, and still keep stabbing your leg some how, even though you do try??

Just not doing it hard enough, i guess some would say..

i say, try and try again!

Cool article, beauflow. Thanks for the reference!

I know my emotions have been up and down but I have this sense of impending doom looming over my head, on a global scale and I'm feeling uneasy about the future and what's waiting for me on the other side.

I might get to see the other guy I like today. I got to see him and talk to him briefly yesterday. I was in a foul mood because of my dad and he was totally understanding and agreed with me because he doesn't like my dad. Such beautiful blue eyes. He's a nice guy. I hope I can get to know him better.

http://www.positivecalm.com/filling-...d-inner-peace/

void and inner peace---

so i need to stop thinking? and then think again?

Today I just don't give a flying rat's *** about myself.

It's kinda nice...peaceful

My tummy is upset...nerves. not the dreaded virus

Well MS T I know you don't like to use labels or talk about diagnoses, but could you have given me a heads up that the class you suggested for me was designed for BPD? That was the first thing I noticed when they handed out the program packets. The next thing I noticed was the page about the way we are to interact and give each other feedback. You told me it was mainly an educational class and there would not be much interaction between the students. And the page requiring me to put a number on the severity of certain emotional feelings defeated me. SHRIEK!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Thanks for cancelling our next session!!!! AAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

So how was everyone elses day?

I am tired. I think it is a delayed-reaction response to the she-monster situation a few weeks ago (long story). It has really put me into a spin and I am so unhappy about this. My head constantly hurts.

I HATE that she can still make me feel so lousy that I can spiral into such a dark pit. I really truly do.

(Husband's refusal to do anything around here for himself, as well as bad news about a friend far away, also are NOT helping....)

I need to get some energy back so I can get back on top and be back in charge of my small world. And get back some control. It's the only thing that's going to make me feel better.

Genuinely moving on would be a very good thing.

How do you cope with the feeling that everything is coming to an end? Faced with the possibility of absolute destruction, all of the peace I had and firm standing in what faith I had left is just gone. Now I'm back to not knowing anything again and receding back into the darkest places of my mind for comfort.

I am getting a canker sore. I don't know how my son handles multiple ones. This one canker is bad enough. I have a whole new level of respect for my son.

Work was cancelled again. Winter storm warning this time. Two days this week so far. This will be another short check.

How cute is this?

I WANT SUNSHINE!!!!!! It has been November, I think since we have seen sunshine. Tempratures will warm right up tomorrow but it will be rain. Then as temps drop back it will change back to snow. I WANT SUNSHINE!!!

I wish I could rope the sun and bring it to you, but I haven't seen it lately either.

I want to thank everybody who is kind enough to read posts, and take the time to try an understand what folks are feeling. And then leaving a Hug, that's awesome.

It helps to know we're not alone! It really does.

http://imageshack.us/a/img256/5826/happydaysahead.jpg

I managed to cut my finger while opening a bottle of water yesterday(plastic cut instead of paper cut... lol). It hurts, and it's making typing very annoying.

I'm also irritated because I did not sleep yet again last night. I'm on my last nerve with my stupid insomnia.

Also, I would like it to stop being winter. Right now.

It's not too much to ask...will he comply? One day...one f-ing day?

"To Trudge: the slow weary depressing yet determined walk of a man (or woman) who has nothing left in his (or her) life except the impulse to simply soldier on." (Chaucer, "A Knight's Tale")

Paul Bettany did a brilliant Chaucer in this movie.

HA Ha on me. Learning to crochet on youtube. Have this real cute "small" santa I'm making. Must learn to read.. AM learning to count... AJ keeps laughing at me as he hears me count, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, ANYway, couldn't figure out how what I was working on would be the head. Sure didn't look like a head. SO I kept on following the directions. Making sure each row had the "correct" amount of stitches.....

Well it turns out the pattern starts from the bottom and not the head. SO that means the fur around the bottom of santa's coat is cream instead of white. And I guess his head will be tan.. shrugs shoulders... Now that I've gotten to where the head goes, it all makes sense.. Guess I thought the pattern started from the head and well it starts from the bottom.. Did it upside down.. rolls eyes at myself...

Now I can't wait to see what the little santa will look like finished........
yipee I just might complete one project.....

Why the sky is always up?