How do you REALLY feel today???

just make it all go away.

Totally worn out, I have not managed to get myself dressed today and did not sleep at all last night, My mind won't switch off at night. I have T tomorrow but I so wish I was still seeing my ExT.

You just summed up every thought I have going on in my head (except I had T yesterday).

And I too wish I were still seeing my ex-T.

Hugs to you and I wish you felt better.

Sad, moody, not good. Lots of things making me sad. Trying to fight it off all day.

I feel overwhelmed at the moment. I browse through and ponder the posts....and the VOLUME of unhappiness...I feel helpless...useless. Why do we all feel so alone?

Wishing I were just a little more depressed so I wouldn't eat and would be able to stay in bed without thinking about it.

Pain level bouncing between 7 and 8.

OH OH, I got that first part down...you have to mix in anxiety, too, that's KEY. Then that combo = not much eating.

I am sorry you hurt.

liek horse@#$%!

Just trying to be balanced because a couple of coincidences negated each other.

Wired for some reason. Can't turn my mind off tonight. I would normally have a stiff drink to end my day but.......Day 10 no alcohol-so.........let's think about everything that ever made me cry from the sixth grade and on. Sounds like a plan!

trying to find the happy, shiny part in a darker place...I believe we refer to this as "romanticising" and "suspended disbelief"

I've decided for the last six months that i would fight conversion disorder with a smile and a positive outlook but today i feel like i've lost the fight

Better here today... and yes, a bit excited about the trip!!!!

numb....my teeth are sensitive to cold and I have a long weekend ahead!

I'm not really sure today...

guilty for skipping work because the roads are not plowed where I live. My son and I both stayed home. I also have a backache, excuses excuses!

like blaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Annoyed...

Well, trying to live in the moment and not waste energy on thoughts I have no control over. It takes a lot of patience to balance feelings and thoughts without stressing out. No wonder I can't easily do the simplest tasks, but need a distraction to release the tension.Like exercise, the games section, etc.

I woke up feeling like crap. Every muscle in my body aches.
I am starting to feel better though. I think I just overslept.
I had a couple cups of coffee, and it made the headache go
away. Thank God for that. I hope today is a good day. Mom
is yelling at me already.

Exposed!!!!

Semi-Scattered

I'm sick and it's making all the negative stuff come out, but so far so good. Just hope it doesn't get any worse.

Better. Relieved. Less discombobulated.

All improvements from earlier in the evening. I felt like, was afraid, I might crack. Literally.

My mother jabbed me in the heart, cut deep, with a cruel, damaging, belittling remark aimed at my Dx. Knowledge is power for her ... and control.

I will not speak with her again for a very long time. Using one's illnesses to cut them down and hurt them is just cruel. Abusive. More than hurtful.

Goodbye mother.