How do you REALLY feel today???

frustrated. I wish I was three again, so I could throw a tantrum and scream "IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!".

bad.. and im running out of ideas of how to motivate myself to get things done and not waste the day

A bit sad. It's my daughter's 20th birthday and she's so far away....

Sick with the bug but you guys are great

I just want to go back to bed.

I feel completely alone, the one person I can talk to doesn't want to talk to me, and i'm letting it reinforce the 'i'm bad' thoughts. I'm crying as I type and have no idea what to do.....

Maranara, I'm sorry you cant celebrate with your daughter I'm sure she misses you. When I was away from family on my birthdays we would have a little pre-birthday skype session. I know its not the same though. Hugs

I hope I will get everything done today, everything important, since I'm off from work... Feeling anxious, thus. Hope I won't get stuck spinning in my head, ruminating on my solitude

Pain was at a 7 but just finished being stretched at pt so its at 8 fir a bit

... Working at not dwelling upon having no quality of life

((((JD)))) I so understand no quality of life! I am in constant pain and am so tired. exhausted is more like it. physically and emotionally drained. I seriously need a break!

Honestly, the past few days I have been struggling. Friday night I vacummed the Kitchen and downstairs bathroom, the two rooms that take a beating because I track in alot of dirt from being out doing the barn work so much.

My husband was around alot and he began to clean around me and while I appreciate it, what I don't like is how he has a way of not seeing that I "do" work at it too. I just have to work around my constant struggle with the PTSD and some days I am not so good at it. I have felt a bit overwhelmed since the big storm because there is too much snow to put the horses/ponies out and too much for me to shovel out the paddocks. It also took me a while to recover from all the shoveling that I did do, as I was very "body sore". Yesterday was "very windy" and cold and I didn't even want to go out in it and do my chores.

On Mondays I am always tired because when he is around I just feel how much he wants me to be something I can't be anymore, I am not the old me and he tends to get short tempered with me, always did, but now it is not so easily overlooked.

I feel very anxious with tummy nerves. mgmt wanted to speak to certain people at work and one of them returns tonight after many days off. I am uncertain what to expect from her if mgmt meets with her prior to our shift together. Not sure how this work shift will go tonight. Tensions might brew. I am hoping not. Crossing my fingers.

Not good adn things r not ngoign well at all far beads this day.......we is stranded atour freinds house in a ice storm........she left to pick up her grandson to babyset him.....when she gets back beads will prolly "GET" to watch him whileshe does horse choresfar liek 5-6 huors,,,,then mabe, ifen roads is still passabel whitch we highly doubt, we mite getto go home.

Ready to try and pick myself back up after a few days of having a hard time. Grateful for the people in my life- both in 3D and here at PC.

Like a Sack of Skin

I feel like inventing a new kind of yoga....called wall yoga....all you do is bang your head against a wall......cause thats what i feel like doing

Like I got dropped on my head

Emotionless. Just...existing. Indifference maybe?

Like it's too early to feel this freaked out...

Already mad at the people who cannot drive in the rain, before I have even left the house...

Tired. I saw him last night. He is such a warm, gentle man. I feel a bit down today.

Today I feel very moody. That's how I usually feel everyday. I'm stuck in the house during my vacation with nothing to do and no friends to be with. I feel lonely and pathetic and hopeful at the same time. I wish I had a social life. I don't need a large group if friends. Just a few people I can talk to when I want someone besides my mom to talk to. I have an ipod with the capability of texting but I have no one to text. I know I sound selfish with all the I, I, I's. I just wanted to vent some. I really need someone to talk to.

I feel thoroughly screwed over at the moment.

A bit anxious today, for no real reason...

tired, in pain, and pretty overloaded with things to sort out