How do you REALLY feel today???

.........

Unexpectedly relieved thanks to a friend

Positive

like cat poop.

Really bad.

Feel unwanted and lonely

unhappy, lonely, like i need to talk, and just restless

very very small and scaired

Horrible. Upset and Anxious.

sleepy with sinus pressure

I feel frustrated today, and tired and I had alot of anxiety and my stomach has been hurting from all the anxiety tbh.

I am still thinking about how I am going to address my attorney with this new concern that hit me like a led ballon on Monday. I am glad I didn't find this information out in front of him, that would have NOT gone well at all. I definitely needed some time and thankfully comfort from my PC friends to calm down. Actually I am glad that my husband was the one that found out the way he did and not me, because honestly I did have a rage and I haven't had that happen in a long time.

When I have something upset me like that my stomach really hurts, my chest hurts and I feel like I have been badly beaten up all over my body. I also get the chills really bad and I worry about experiencing a flashback. I didn't have a big flashback but alot of mini ones like those old movie cards flipping fast pictures. And I have had boughts where I just cry too. Then I feel bad because I struggle like that and wish I was more like my old self where I didn't struggle like this.

Then I feel sorry, I feel sorry and sad for everyone that struggles like this because it can be so challenging and "lonely".

Well I started the day well and excited as it was new car shopping day. That lasted all of about half a day then turned into utter frustration. I have a good friend, or what I thought was a good friend totally disregard how I was feeling and reduced me to feeling this way. Maybe it is time I cut that connection.

I will try to end on a light note and try to go back and be happy for the new car. I do like it, though a little on the higher side of cost that I was looking for, but should be worth it.

Note: I have felt this way long before Alicia Keys did that 'girl on fire' song

I feel like I am burning, metaphorically and at times quite literally in the soul. I feel like my heart will burst from my body. I feel like a giant, eternally burning star set up high in the comos by a greek god. My soul is alive, even if nothing else is.

And I feel amused and a bit befuddled that I am in this earth-bound body and expected to live an ordinary life! There is nothing more insane than ordinary life.

Lonely, Invisible, Hopeless, Broken

I feel like my compass is broken

Happy!!!!!!

Overwhelmed- so many irons in the fire.

disappointed that I fell on my face again so to speak.

I feel okay

Bad
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Flu (running the whole gamut of fun symptoms)

A bit anxious and scatterred

...yeah.

Feel like I need to invest in one of those miracle lamps/lights soon, if this rain does not stop....

I feel like space. Airy head. It's better when it's full. I don't want to be just a body. I want to be able to think about what to say and write before I've said it and read it, and know that it's what I meant.