How do you REALLY feel today???

I'm receiving texted Happy Easter greetings from family members I haven't seen in forever. It's making me feel lonely and sad.

I feel a little better since the antibiotics but still tired. I guess resting whenever I can is the best answer.

Me ..sad...lonely,angry,anxious...wow its a mix and it sucks.

Monday. Back to work. Meh.

^^^^^^^^Exactly^^^^^^^^

Lonely and no one to talk to

I feel like i will never have a good job and be able to support myself to the point of even owning a car again, let alone my own accomodation.

I feel like nobody in my life listens to me and that I don't really matter at all

I feel better now that some silliness came out of me.

I am having a good day so far. It is April 1, though, so I'm wary of pranks.

Depression sucks

Lets see. Woke up today. Had to go buy some 3 inch pipe to make an intercooler tube for my truck. The struggle was when to take my adderall lol. Do it early and have a couple hours down time in the middle of my day or wait a couple hours in the morning and not have any downtime in the middle of the day. I decided just to go buy pipe and wait on taking my medication. Took it at 10am so that the second dose will last past my class endtime tonight.

So now I am feeling pretty good. As far as april fools pranks I don't think I will encounter any of them.

I feel down and exhausted today

It's a rare good day today. Shocking!

It's been a very anxious day from the git go. The car will cost a couple thousand to fix and still the underbody will be "soft" corroded and unsafe according to the mechanics. They loaned me another car to drive home and try out. It was the same age and mileage as my car. I'm really scared. I don't know what to do. We can't really afford any of it.

I am bummed out and annoyed by a situation that is completely out of my control.

Tuesday. Back to work. Meh.

Rough and anxious.

Hung over!!!!!

Sluggish and a bit scattered...

Trapped.

I love him and I want him and I wish I knew how he felt, I hope that he could feel about me the same way I feel about him.

Unstable, but together. Having my son involuntarily admitted to pysch hospital and he's POd

pxxxd off, deflated, cheated, and have lost all faith in anything ever going right! national health service, social services, advertise free this and freethat foe disabled people, but in all reality when you need it they refuse you it eventhough they see you desperately need it all because of some outdated criteria which was thought up bewfore personalisation was even on the agenda of Parliament! trust me I would be much better off if i had not been forced into paying National insurance and tax for all those years as i would have asved a fortune and been in a position where i could afford what i need, instead my hopes and faith in the system has repeatedly built up my hopes and ultimately squashed them. America has the right idea, atleast you know where you stand!

Now I am on the waiting timeframe. So nervous and anxious is me for days to come. Giving blood for my antigen blood tests. Dr visit next week. Cross fingers.