How do you REALLY feel today???

NoCake · Feb 10, 2013, 02:09 AM

unsure...

beadlady29 · Feb 10, 2013, 02:50 AM

stressed oujt to the max..................

Nicks_Nose · Feb 10, 2013, 02:56 AM

Grateful I did not have to work tonight and therefore stayed indoors during this ugly weather.

ellipsisdream · Feb 10, 2013, 09:45 AM

Tired and very hungover. This snowstorm weekend has been one big party. I now remember why I do not do this anymore...

Feb 12, 2013, 02:13 PM

Nervous and excited. Holding steady.

Feb 12, 2013, 03:09 PM

me thinks moi pp has extended to me arm....

optimize990h · Feb 12, 2013, 10:16 PM

Better than the average earthworm who poops an average of once every 50 seconds.

krishtanah1990 · 11:25 PM

Death seems to be hunting for me. Why else would it flash such dark images into my brain? These are the thoughts that flash before my mind’s eye in less than one second nearly every second every day. My nerve endings feel like they are on fire and then dipped in nucleic acid. These are just my waking thoughts. My dreams or night terrors I call them are even worse. For while I can always manage to distract myself in my conscious state, in the once used to be pleasant wonders of a surreal kingdom of slumber there now exists a seemingly endless torture plane of existence. Why is it worse? Because in my deepest worst thoughts while I sleep I can’t waken until the torture is over. I know I am not alone out there and yet that is what I feel. Am I crazy is what you are asking by this point. Some days I am. Others not so much. Honestly I don’t know for how do you know what crazy is if this is all you have felt all your life? Crazy is the opposite of normal and I have never experienced a normal day in my life. Then there are the days that I feel that I am the only sane one out there. Whats the point of petty arguments or working towards something only to have it end? Everything ends. Everything dies. So why don’t I give it all up. Because while what goes on in my life is merely an illusion, I in fact am not an illusion. I exist to both myself and others and while people may not know me my absence would be surely felt. How do you ask? Just because someone never met Plato while he lived doesn’t mean his presence wasn’t felt by millions of people for years to come. That applies to everyone out there. I am not a philosopher like Plato. If you ask me the truth I loathe philosophy. However, I have discovered a few truths in my young troubled life. Just because I don’t make an impact now doesn’t mean that I won’t someday. Everyone is capable of greatness. You just have to search that greatness out. I ask you to join me along for the ride. My thoughts may not always be as coherent or as linear as they are now so I ask you to bear with me. These are only the thoughts I think. I offer no beginners guide to my disorders or offer any advice. Sometimes there will be no structure and some days I can’t even express my thoughts on paper so there may be entries from other mediums or gaps days or even weeks in between. This is what I offer. To present a no hold’s bar inside tap into the psyche of someone with a mental disorder. Think you can handle it? Good. Next time, give me a few pointers and I’ll let you know if they help or not.[/font]

Pikku Myy · Feb 13, 2013, 12:48 AM

You still sound like you have a future

Maybe not with Plato... but is seems clear to me you are healing

Hugs

Quote:

Originally Posted by krishtanah1990

Death seems to be hunting for me. Why else would it flash such dark images into my brain? These are the thoughts that flash before my mind’s eye in less than one second nearly every second every day. My nerve endings feel like they are on fire and then dipped in nucleic acid. These are just my waking thoughts. My dreams or night terrors I call them are even worse. For while I can always manage to distract myself in my conscious state, in the once used to be pleasant wonders of a surreal kingdom of slumber there now exists a seemingly endless torture plane of existence. Why is it worse? Because in my deepest worst thoughts while I sleep I can’t waken until the torture is over. I know I am not alone out there and yet that is what I feel. Am I crazy is what you are asking by this point. Some days I am. Others not so much. Honestly I don’t know for how do you know what crazy is if this is all you have felt all your life? Crazy is the opposite of normal and I have never experienced a normal day in my life. Then there are the days that I feel that I am the only sane one out there. Whats the point of petty arguments or working towards something only to have it end? Everything ends. Everything dies. So why don’t I give it all up. Because while what goes on in my life is merely an illusion, I in fact am not an illusion. I exist to both myself and others and while people may not know me my absence would be surely felt. How do you ask? Just because someone never met Plato while he lived doesn’t mean his presence wasn’t felt by millions of people for years to come. That applies to everyone out there. I am not a philosopher like Plato. If you ask me the truth I loathe philosophy. However, I have discovered a few truths in my young troubled life. Just because I don’t make an impact now doesn’t mean that I won’t someday. Everyone is capable of greatness. You just have to search that greatness out. I ask you to join me along for the ride. My thoughts may not always be as coherent or as linear as they are now so I ask you to bear with me. These are only the thoughts I think. I offer no beginners guide to my disorders or offer any advice. Sometimes there will be no structure and some days I can’t even express my thoughts on paper so there may be entries from other mediums or gaps days or even weeks in between. This is what I offer. To present a no hold’s bar inside tap into the psyche of someone with a mental disorder. Think you can handle it? Good. Next time, give me a few pointers and I’ll let you know if they help or not.[/font]

Pikku Myy · Feb 13, 2013, 12:52 AM

And I am not a PC professional... just a PC friend

optimize990h · Feb 13, 2013, 07:20 PM

I need to eat even though happy I am back and does not want me to leave.

Muser · Feb 13, 2013, 09:00 PM

Feeling a bit disconnected...though I really couldn't pinpoint a single thing that is wrong.

Feb 13, 2013, 09:44 PM

I attended Ash wednesday services this evening. I am going to prepare myself for a bride in the future. This is my goal. My Pastor will guide me to it. I feel calm and good.

IowaFarmGal · Feb 13, 2013, 09:50 PM

I feel diffuse and exhausted

Nicks_Nose · Feb 14, 2013, 01:34 AM

physically rested, emotionally blank.

Emrys · Feb 14, 2013, 01:43 AM

forgotten

Feb 14, 2013, 04:08 AM

releived

Nicks_Nose · Feb 14, 2013, 05:28 AM

Amused. Just watched "Shall We Dance"

gunny1 · Feb 14, 2013, 07:50 AM

I have moments of calm then seconds later I feel terrible

Muser · Feb 14, 2013, 09:48 AM

Grateful

optimize990h · Feb 14, 2013, 01:45 PM

better than yesterday with less sleep.

Feb 14, 2013, 01:49 PM

Uncertain. I'm trying to put the past year of my life into words so I can share them in a post - the reason I joined these boards. But I'm having difficulty doing so.

Also, I have a dentist appointment this afternoon. And those are never fun.