How do you REALLY feel today???

Don't take it as something that HAS to be done right now.....maybe break up in to specific events to make it easier. We'll be ready to listen when you're ready to share....maybe you're just not there yet. No biggie...give it some time. No pressures here.

sleepy. would LOVE to have a nap!

Still don't know. Good that I've gotten some things done, but I feel as though the tension/anxiety is building and I don't know when it might blow.

That's appreciated more than you know.

like running far, far away

liek a preverbeiql peice of s #$%.
mary

I feel happy.

thie is my first train ride in one and ahakf years..train canceled..next train delayed and had to go to another sttaion..i am so close to crying

Really, really, real glad it's Friday.

Did I mention I was really, really, real glad it's Friday?

Feeling resentful and mistrusting of certain coworkers who I have to work with all the time. One even wrote me an apology card but I know she will just turn around and do the same thing all over again, first chance she gets. Empty apologies are worse than none.

nicksnose, ive had to work with ppl like that as well. they mistake your friendliness for weakness but dont let them get you down. they have some issues to behave like that!

Today again I actually feel very calm and somewhat happy!!! Its finally sunny outside.. and plan to go and work in the back field with the horses

Sad...I feel like a freaking ghost

Like the missing sock.


-Fleeing Bellocq

like giving up

Feeling pretty good today. Meeting new people on these boards has definitely sparked some happiness in me.

Horrible. I've been so depressed. I love him and I'm not sure how he feels. He acts interested, so I'm hopeful.

bloated, my pants are too tight

like a kidney stone

Would like to retract my earlier "feeling pretty good" statement. Got home, checked my bank account.

Have been paying down debt through an arrangement for about five years. Started out with over $15000 in debt...now down to about $2000. The past few months were tough with the arrangements so I wasn't able to make payments regularly or in full. When I logged in to pay some bills today, I discovered over $1600 missing from my account. It's to pay off the remainder of one of those debts. I have $300 left.

Yeah, that's fine. I only have other bills to pay and stuff. I don't need to eat. I don't need to pay rent.

*insert multiple curse words here*

On another note, my depression must not be completely set in at the moment since I'm just angry right now and didn't burst into tears over the whole thing. Small victories...

I feel indifferent.

My "normal" emotions are blunted, even my anxiety. I don't exactly feel bored, as there are things to do, even things that I normally find fun. I think I still do, but I just don't care so much. I have flashes of emotions but they feel far away, like when your mouth is being drilled on at the dentist, both there and not there.

I almost feel like a ghost, like a dead person looking back over the life with a certain level of detachment, maybe a chapter of my life has closed and I'm still writing the next? I don't think this is abnormal, at least not according to my belief system, my teachers said this would be the next step in my personal development, but basically I don't think I'm depressed, if anything I'm more functional than when I felt happy.

After years of being a hermit, sometimes not leaving the house for months on end, I am adjusting well (so far) to going to classes four days a week. I go, I sit quietly and take notes, I study as much as necessary. I don't care (though I have nothing better to do), it's almost like I'm watching a movie.

I have not read it yet, but that book Stranger in a Strange Land? The title works for me. I feel strange, like an outsider in my own life, like I an anon looking in on some place.

I find it all rather interesting, I guess, but I'm not as deeply involved. I don't think it's permanent (again according to my teachers), but I don't think it's going to change for some months. The only way out is through.

I'm a bit shaken up but I'll be fine.

No one really wants to know.

I've been feeling sick and head achy all day. I feel some better tonight though.

I feel like Saintly a few posts back, but didn't really know it until I read it.

...and it is an improvement for me.

So, I guess I feel good...