How do you REALLY feel today???

been very up and down today, stressed at email from architect, happy I sorted it out, stressed email stopped working and had coursework to send in for deadline, happy I fixed it and sent it, ecstatic I passed, stressed I fell out my wheelchair, led to hopeless that I am on my own, led to really not wanting to be here and 'what's the point of carrying on' to ok my gerbils all came for a snuggle, to exhausted so came to bed, took my pain meds and put my electric under blanket on , so now am warm with cope able pain and relaxed.

Lack of sleep is finally catching up with me....I hope I can crash hard tonight.

Everything is falling apart and I'm just sitting here watching it crumble. My health is deteriorating, my relationships are deteriorating, my motivation has gone to hell and I can't remember the last time my head wasn't in pain. And now I'm exploding from the stress of fighting an addiction cold-turkey.

Addiction is always there for me but she asks too much in return. And when I have nothing left to give Karma takes everything else away... I was always a sucker for a pretty face...

Lost and alone

I am not sure what happened, but as the day has gone on, I have been increasingly agitated. Not just a little, but crawling out of my skin, afraid to open my mouth, ready to swing pissed off... It is not anything in particular- it is everything.

I finally broke down and took my prn.

I'm exhausted.

Not great, i am going bald now and i noticed more hair loss last night.

Terrified. Every time I think of being with him in an intimate way, I either get supremely anxious or I simply want to vomit. And he is such a nice person.

Drained...

•••I couldnt have said it better myself. I honestly say that to myself all the time. My name is StonyPony. I dont know what your issues are so Ill tell u a little about me. I grew up an abused child, from verbal to mental, molestation, beatings, neglect etc. I left my moms only to get into an abusive relationship & drugs and all that comes with that. So 19 years later, Im Bi-polar, have PTSD, ADD, and in a severe depression right now. I would imagine I think I know how you feel. Ive suffered, literally, my whole life. I dont have any magic words to make you feel better, Im sorry, but what I can say is with some hard work it will get better. I believe that, for you & myself. I started with baby steps. 1st seeing a med doc, now a therapist, and lotsa reading about my conditions helps. I at least have hope now, thats all, but theres hope 4 you too. Just dont give up & things WILL get better. I promise you that. I hope this helps u, u can PM me if u want to know more or just need someone to talk to- Id love to hear from you.

feeling flustered and tired of doctors finding ***** wrong with me Just once I would like a test to turn out normal. I am also fighting for my life thanks to mitral valve prolapse. but not going without a darn good FIGHT! in the meantime.. I am busy helping others with brain issues.

I know juat what you mean about health deteriorating. i am only 37 and dying from a heart condition.. bad enough my brain is deformed but now this TOO? i WISH i COULD HANG THIS CRAP ON ONE OF MY ENEMIES BECUZ i SURE DON'T WANT IT. PRETTY ANGRY

I feel ok, slightly happy slightly unhappy. I'm unhappy because I have to fight for control over my head and less for my thoughts... In all I'm stuck in a world and with a curse I did not deserve.
.... I'm innocent.

I finally woke up feeling better today Been struggling with severe mood swings and the stomach bug .... and having my medications adjusted It has been a total roller coaster here for the past month Lets hope this good feeling keeps on....

Never imagined there have been so many truthful replies from my PC pals Just keep posting... I know it helps little me

I'm really tired. Did not want to get out of bed this morning. I'm not in a bad mood. I'm not overly happy. I'm somewhere in between.

Fourth day in a row with basically no sleep, I'm getting frustrated. I hate insomnia.

confused, hurt, angry, resentful, guilty, scared.

content, curious, hurt, angry, nervous

relaxed for now...indecisive though on what to make for supper.

Hugs from:
ellipsisdream, IowaFarmGal, karoliinareddish, Nicks_Nose, possum220, shlump

Thank you all x

Anytime, hun. Wish I could reach through the screen to give a real hug. but I guess texting one is the best we can do.

Just pretty tired, going to have some nice reading and sleeping later!

Agitated. Flabbergasted.

sick of my family thinking they can run the show.. even AFTER I die.. it's MY body afterall.. not theirs

I feel just royally screwed, I might wake up tomorrow morning.