Checking in (How do you feel today)? #3

<------That about sums it up.

Meh. The City is digging up the road directly in front of my home to replace water mains that are over 100 years old. Yay for the effort. Boo for the noise. It is unbelievable.

I feel anxious, deep in thought. My stomach is in a knot.

I feel stereotypically neurotic.

I have to go out today and run some errands. riding buses, riding the train ugh. Being around certain people. It's beautiful out the sun is warm, however it's hard to do anything some days, the pressure's on to leave my safe surroundings.

frustrated. Went to ER last night, been having problems with racing heart, and high blood pressure. Since I have bipolar, they think its nerves. I tried to explain I have the coping skills to know when my stress and anxiety levels are up and I can rate them on a scale to 0 to 10. They ran some test, and gave me a blood pressure medication. I hate when doctors just throw medicine at me. I want to know what is wrong.

I'm in a fairly good mood today. I'm always a little down, but sometimes I'm better at ignoring it then others. My back is still sprained but it's feeling better. I found out that I'm in the red in my checking account and I have to go to Nashville this weekend, so something's gotta give. Mom said she'd help me. I didn't get a whole lot of sleep last night, it's still so hard to get comfortable with my back hurting. I took a Flexeril this morning and it made me really sleepy. I almost fell asleep while driving to work this morning. I had to keep blinking my eyes and blowing air on my face to keep from nodding off.

Pretty darn rubbish.

Still have the pinched nerve symptoms of numbness and tingling in my left leg. Doc says it can take a few weeks. (sighs) I hope this goes away eventually.

I'm all over the map today...

Better overall but very, very sleepy. Having problems paying attention.

sings lullaby to Maranara

Sick of feeling like crap. Sick of getting depressed any time I look at wedding stuff. Getting married is supposed to be a happy time in one's life, not sad and depressing. About ready to just give up on it all. It's not worth feeling like this all the darn time.

Mentally, I am okay... but I have been battling such severe insomnia lately that it my cognitive function is in the toilet. Frustrating. I want some zzzzzzz's.

I am concerned for my younger son. He is stressing himself out over silly things and he is going to cause his own breakdown if he doesn't learn to let things go. Gee...he sounds like me.

Hmmm.. seems to literally get better by the minute- and not that isn't just because as time passes means I get another minute closer to home.. but yeah.
Sleep deprived again- but ya know nothing unusual for me this month right?

Though when I get home guess I have an ant mess to clean up? My S/O tried to help out but I think things need to be really cleaned.. I don't know where the little pests came from-- and honestly- i thought the Apartment complex were to deal with pests? but i don't know

Groggy and still a little under the weather

Today I feel like I have had enough for one life already!
I know its just a mood or a momentary lapse of reason, but I am tired of waking up depressed, hitting a daily bottom, then fighting my way up again. I mean you know, I should be used to it by now...maybe I am rebelling against it?
All I know is that enough is enough and I wanna be happy again...much much more often!

I feel kind of contemplative today. Reading some great spiritual and recovery literature lately and I'm integrating what I'm learning. It's pretty cool. Had a bit of a cry last night though. Watching Parenthood with my partner always brings up feelings for me...I pretty much end up crying at the end of every one.

I'm literally falling asleep at my desk...

doing laundry, thinking about my husband.enjoying the thought that it's going to be sunny and 75 degrees today!

I'm picking up steam, thanks to a Milky Way Latte'

Rough day so far.

Very knackered but with good reason, was up at 6.30am, out for over ten hours straight, and started off in a very stressed/wound up mood.. glad to be home and relaxing now though

Optimistic