Checking in (How do you feel today)? #3

Looking forward to my visit with my T
But I feel pretty good. I have been mostly upbeat as of late.

Not too great. My emotions have been extremely up and down for weeks but at least I have reasons now, instead of just random spikes.

My son was not in a very good mood today- we had to go out and he just wanted to spend the day at home with my partner and I so there was a whole heap of horrid attitude. But then my partner gave him a shoulder ride home and the grin on his face was amazing!
My partner and I went out to dinner and a movie as well so all in all today hasn't been too bad.

Exhausted after a trying week in which my OCD was playing havoc with me. Am seeing my therapist tomorrow, and of course my mind is filled with constant intrusive thoughts about something happening to prevent me from doing so. (Made worse as last week's session was cancelled and I have much to tell him.) What a prison fear is :-( Still on the plus side I have managed to continue some of my exposure homework.

I feel anxious for no apparent reason, and I feel a little down again today. Maybe I'll get to see the other guy I like today.

Encouraged...I saw the dr yesterday and although I have to wear the cast for another 6 to 8 weeks, I dont think I will need surgery have to go back in 3 weeks for re-check.

Ok re: new guy. We spoke on the phone last night and had a very nice chat. Also cleared the air. He talks about his feelings...it is very refreshing.

Work: meh.

Didn't get much sleep and I'm working all day. Gonna be fun....

Finally succumbing to the program cold... I am likely going to take a nap before my SO gets home. I am however, still in a good mood.

I had my first STEPPS class this afternoon. It was not as advertised by my T and I'm feeling kind of stressed. I did however stick with it until the end of class, although I wanted to flee the room. Then I found out my appointment with T on Thursday is cancelled due to a training session so I won't see her until the middle of next month. I'm still not feeling well either so that doesn't help

Exhausted, but the rational part of my mind seems to be working better, now.

Sleepy, sleepy. Always sleepy!

I am pretty darn sleepy today. Seems it has been that way all week.
Sleepy and moody.

Today has been long but good. I got a hug, kiss, and "I love you" from my son on the train which was completely unexpected but fantastic! I also got to pick up our engagement rings today! But I'm not allowed to wear it until my partner officially pops the question!!!

Not at all happy right now.
Rant rave rant rave.
Just feeling pissy about meeting my ex's new man. I am happy for her...seriously...he can have her but its just the way she is all happy go lucky one minute because of her new guy then all "oh but it will not be the same because of how you hurt me"
WTF ever!

I will never again wear tights/leotards as a grown woman. Ouchy!

Happy the HVAC service showed up to repair my heater!!!!! Yeah

F-ing triggers beat me back a bit. Guess I'll try to fill out my online job app later... Can't focus right now. They have some questions about write ups I had at my last job that I don't want to face.

Maybe I'll just apply somewhere else, but I am a perfect fit for this job. Maybe my old boss can wipe the write ups for me.

I don't want something stupid that someone else did to screw up this job for me.

I was a model employee...someone else painted me in a very bad light.

I don't know....

Just need a break for a couple of hours....

I can''t believe i STILL have the flu it's over a week now!!! I feel a bit better today, but for some reason I'm a nervous wreck, i hope that feeling goes away

Grumpy and cold. I hate winter. Just want to hide under my bed covers.

They're playing soccer with my head today...

Have had about 8 hours sleep the last three days. Too much on my mind to settle down, and even with such little sleep I'm too worked up to feel tired. May need to take something tonight to break the cycle.

Feeling much better than yesterday, Starting with my new T tomorrow

Hoping the strong winds don't blow my square little SUV off the road when I go home. More flooding, very strong winds, tornado watch, and a boatload of rain. Glad I don't have to drive home through Big Cove, as it's completely blocked off. Unless they can come in a back way, they can't get home if they live there.

i feel ok today actually... some how i am all done with my work with in a little over an hour don't know how that happened, i just took off when i first got in with things...

I was surprised when I looked in the mirror today after my wash, at home before coming in to work (of course)... my face is actually not all broken out-- i still have the scars of course and one blemish spot, but other than that-- quiet clear.... Usually my face skin can tell a lot of "how i am"..... i have not seen it this clear in for so long.... I hope it keeps up

Today has been a bit bittersweet. My son had a great first day in grade 1, we had a good afternoon, and he and my partner played hide and seek for a while. But all this crap with his maternal grandmother is still going on and I'm just sick of it. She's proven time and again that she has no parental skills, let alone those of a grandparent, and she's repeatedly put my son in danger and then shown clear evidence to Child Protection. Yet she's still allowed near him without any supervision or monitoring. Just so damn frustrating and worrying.

Sorry for the rant.