Checking in (How do you feel today)? #3

The counselling I seek is government funded which results in waiting lists. I tried private psychologists too and it was beyond my pay level. What makes it even more difficult is the fact that I work night shifts which means I sleep in the daytime and they cannot reach me for an appointment time.

quite surly................grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Thought I was getting strong but obviously not.

Quite a bit better - but yet an other medication to try...Well at least this one I know doesn't have an unacceptable side-effects, because I took it briefly once before - just let's see if it will actually help on not with other things now.......

thankfull beyond words.................but still very scaired about the futuer

Good morning everyone

I am feeling a bit 'stuck' today. Ii have been blogging about how i don't seem to be able to write poetry like i used to, as the words get stuck. I think 'stuck' kind of sums up how i feel in general.

Morning , just write down what you can and hopefully at a later stage you will become unstuck , hugs

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Thanks Shygirl, i'll give it a go

Just heard that my cousin has had her baby, A baby boy

Sorry you are "Stuck"
I know it is totally not the same thing, but when I'm writing code for a project I can get stuck. Working on some problem for hours at a time, sometimes I just have to get up and go for a walk, or do something completely different. When I come back the break seems to unlock my brain a bit, leaving me open to different avenues of thought. There have been many times where I struggle all day on a problem and finally call it a day, then the next morning go back to work and figure out the problem in a matter of minutes. Weird...

Sorry for the ramble, but if you made it through my post, maybe I distracted you long enough to become "Un-Stuck"

I definitely did make it through your post, thanks YY
I have decided to give it a break and stop trying for today. The more i try and force it, the worse it seems to become.
So, like you and your problem, i am going to leave it and hope that when i come back to it that it'll be easier.

Thanks YY

I started on antibiotics today for pneumonia. Resting and enjoying the night off work.

Terrible night last night but feel much better this morning

Not good , have bad upset tummy .

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Not really sure. I guess I am okay, feeling kind of blah but not in a bad way. So yea let's say alright. I will take it for what it is and not stress. I will enjoy this mindless blah of nothing while it lasts. And for those of you whose mind never, ever stops even when you sleep, you will truly understand what a blessing this is. lol

Second major insomnia night in a row. Starting to drag. Working all day. I'll be all right, but it's not going to be easy to make it through the day.

I feel like lifes biggest loser and a completely unlovable schlum.
Sure hope your day was better!

I feel mischievous this morning

Unsafe and scared.

Feeling ok I have been caught twice this morning by Aprils fools

Like I've been mauled by an emotions vampire. I haven't felt this drained in a while.

Feeling good, Off out shopping soon

felt headachy all day.

Stumbled out of bed, made my son breakfast and myself coffee, and stumbled to work. Still half asleep but I did get slightly more sleep last night and I will wake up eventually. Should be an alright day.

I feel like raodkill. My ex was explaining something to me and I dared to ask a question of her hein-*** and she jumped all over me like a hungry tiger on a piece of meat.
So now I am hurting having been reminded of what a piece of $hit I am to her and how she does not need anything from me but my alimony and child support.
And unfortunately I take those words in and they are like acid, eating away at all the work I have done, once again, to build up what little self esteem I have.
So now I start building it back up again.
And in the mean time I have to remember to convince myself that I am a human being who has made mistakes, but STILL HAS WORTH AS A HUMAN BEING!