Daily Comments #7- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

Isn't it funny how you shed a tear when you are really sad but you can also shed tears when you are really happy......makes you think.....how things go hand in hand....gratitude....for those moments.... when something touches me so deep that it isn't just a smile its something that runs through my veins and soaks the soul...

I remember long long ago I DID like the type that consisted of some kinda long board mounted midway on a fulcrum thing...yeah...THOSE were ok.

This what you mean?

i fell off one of those and lost my breath once in first grade

Knocked the wind right out of you? That happened to my cousin too. Playgrounds aren't fun sometimes.

Still liked 'em better than the version I ride these days.

updownupdown...wot a damned merry-go-round!

*RANDOMNESS ALERT*
NONE of what you are about to read is in any way realted to each other....i think

OK so its 3:30am and I am at work and feeling like I am going to SCREAM. I have one co-worker snoring....yep...I have another watching a movie, playing a game, and texting like half a dozen people ALL simultaneously...yep...and the other one, he is probably on his cell with his wife...again.(oh I wub you too..God Bwess you...seriously? He is like 53...I wub you?!?) anyway....

I am dreaming about buying a commuter type motorcycle/motorbike so I can ride in on that instead of my monster SUV.

I am SO desparate to find someone that I am actually looking on craigslist...yeah, I know.

I am hungry.

I want a Mojito....or 3.

Damn..... May is almost over.

GUS1234U is a charming and enlightened soul. Truly appreciated

That is so unreal to me. I'm stuck in some kind of time warp. It should barely be past the new year--yet it's nearly 100 degrees outside! Hard to wrap my head around this, when I was a kid the days seemed long and full-what happened?

I miss listening to English songs...

on another note, i baked and cleaned my room finally after 3 months but i didn't feel anything. no accomplishment at all. *sigh*

Strangers have the best candy.

I wish a good mood would last more than a day or two. I wish I could snap out of it. I felt so "enlightened", so "I get it" the other day just to fall down yet again. I wish I could tell everyone in my life to go to h*ll and partially mean it. My emotions and feelings need to be controlled by me, not everyone else...

I have pain in my neck and arms and generally feel like crap today. We're supposed to figure out a long term and short term goals for STEPPS class. I hate goals.

Accomplished more today then I thought was possibly a year ago. Pain is getting more intense as the minutes pass. I really wish there was a way to unsee certain things that one should never have seen in the first place. These sights chip away at you day after day and your left with this gigantic hole that can never be filled or forgotten. Consequences for choices made.

I'm dropping out of one college and staying at another. **** it. The government here is ****ed. I'm going to keep on going, though, because I refuse to let it bring me down. I refuse to be just another silent victim. They're going to wish they never heard my name.

Sometimes you feel like life has gone on long enough and it's time to die and yet... you wake up next day, obviously still alive. That presents a quandary. How to keep on living when there is no real desire to do it. When it seems like you've done everything at least once and a lot of things you've done more than once it becomes stale and redundant and devoid of meaning and in a way it cheapens what once seemed to have meaning.
If you live long enough you see too many things change and too many things stay the same. Meh...

That sums it up for me.

And why did today have to be so god awful??? Really.

I had my first return appointment with my former counsellor today and she wishes to place me in group. This should be interesting. Next appointment is June 4th.

I don't know why, but I would really like to have a thunderstorm come through. I like the sound of rain and thunder, as long as it doesn't get too bad, like it used to in Florida.

My school books at the moment are looking to be a little over a thousand bucks this semester, and are all required.

I know I'll use maybe 3 out of all of them. Why bother?

I'm a complete ****ing failure.

Well, I got my wish for a thunderstorm, only this one brought hail!