Daily Comments #7- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

as low as i'm feeling, i can't believe that i'm actually excited to go back to school -__- but that's in october.

now, next thing to look forward to: volunteer session this saturday and vacation next week. hope i can do this without the depths of darkness consuming me. wish me luck.

for some reason when some new thoughts come into my head, i just want to voice it. I don't care where it is. Once it makes its way in, I just want to shove it back out. To do that, I either type it out, write it on a sheet of paper, or just talk to someone about it. No one should be thinking those thoughts that will eventually bring them down. Nobody deserves it.

Good luck!

Somebody needs to develop a very effective mosquito repellent.

Dinner tonight is going to be delicious. But every time I get up to stir/check it I feel dizzy. Been tired lately too, moreso than usual. Wonder if it's from the illness I just had.

to be quite honest, at times I do feel that life does involve me in every situation, but really it doesn't. It's kind of hard to convince me that it doesn't until...idk what.
Also, I do not feel as bad as I did yesterday. One question still hangs over my head: Why are teenage guys so mean? Why are teenage girls so critical of each other?
The guys that I have met are pretty chill. There's this one super annoying guy that keeps harassing me. Every time I walk by, he asks his neighboring friends,"Hey,(his friend's name), the party was great, wasn't it? We've got to be with hot chicks and everything." Gosh, he is such a donkey.

in 10th grade i kept complaining about why i can't make that many friends. well turns out they did not have a lot of common interests as me. I just stopped hanging out with them. I often cried because they did not seem interested in me.

I would cry on numerous nights thinking that nobody cared. I hope that this cycle of crying over pointless matters will end here. I don't want to think about the past. I hope that a new era of happiness may usher in my life. Hopefully I get to meet people and they get to know me better and to not have any misconceptions about me. Also, to not listen to what their friends have to say about me because personally they don't know who I am.

Nothing like realizing one of your kids used your toothbrush. blue gel all over it, too

Trying to pull together the funds for a beach trip for me and my daughter in July.
I am so dang tired...I took the night off work and I am going to sleep!

I wish some of you can give some of our addiction users some advice on how we can be treated from the most insidious addiction. Even more insidious than cocaine. I wish people could notice it more. Honestly some of us need help. I do it when I'm bored and i feel like once I get started on it, there's no way out. Wonder why I don't just run out of my door and just leave my desk. what's the matter with me?

I am just ready to change my current mindset, current behavior patterns, and thought patterns. No longer will i think those distressing thoughts. I don't know if I'll mention them though. If i can remember more I will talk about it.

Well, I think I need to take a break from all forms of social media. Really, Just from people period. I'm starting to get more and more argumentative and offensive. But I'm still not depressed!

If the thoughts are distressing, it's better not to mention them. You never know what might be a potential trigger to someone - I learned that one the somewhat hard way, haha. Try keeping a journal or something.

why is cereal so nice... i don't just eat it for breakfast

Me either!! Isn't cereal like one of the greatest comfort foods of all?

I am cleaning and rearranging my place now...I get my first weekend with my daughter at my place since we split up. No, my ex isnt being mean, we agreed that this is how it would be till they got a new place and they were settled in. They are not completely settled in, but my daughter requested to spend the entire weekend with me, just us two, for Fathers Day. I love that kid SOO much!

I'm in a pretty good place right now. I have all the necessities in life plus some, and I live well below the poverty line. So it could be a lot worse. I just enjoy the days I can see that and not be so bogged down by all the things in my life that I don't like. It just gets and keeps me stuck. Not to say that I don't have a reason to feel that too...but it's nice to feel gratitude - true gratitude - emanating from within.

Yes!! I love fruity pebbles out of all the cereal! I dont care if its meant for kids... Who needs grown up cereal when you have fruity pebbles

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It's nice to have my nice, quiet house back after having relatives visiting.....

I'm in one of my all time largest avoidance/frozen phases of my life. Ugh.

Feeling productive today, got up and went to work, had a very nice lunch. Some crabcake, and jello, pretty odd I know, but it was good!

*sigh*...

speaking of presentations, I did not do anything. My teammates all got mad and gave me a deadline at 4 the next day. they were so pissed because they had tried to reach me by phone but i was not answering because my phone was all for many hours and then one time when i was trying ot take good pictures of the project, i couldnt and then i got mad and i did not answer their phone call as a result. They were like I'm mad at you and you could have come up with some better ideas. I felt like they were all planning this all along to have given me such a deadline at the very last minute. they were planning on kicking me out of the group because I was not doing enough. You see, sometimes I wonder why I can't be creative.

Ditto.