How Are You Feeling Right Now? #5

I’m exhausted and my throat and head hurts and I’m incredibly anxious. Weird kinda feeling. It’s like an allergic reaction or something. I also have the chills.

I'm tired now. I need a nap.

Content-ish

Still pretty crappy physically. Not anxious anymore though. I’m wondering if maybe I’m getting a double period. I don’t know if that would explain the nasal and throat stuff I’ve had though.

Just getting going.

Doing ok except I can't sleep

Bit flat but okay.

Worthless and worried about nothing and everything all at once.

You are not worthless. You have tremendous value. Feel better!

Awake at almost 3 in the morning, and sad in general, and tired. Need to go to sleep soon.

Im feeling pretty good. I don't have any work to do this weekend, so I can shop with my mom, practice my violin, and work with my dogs. Woot!

Depressed this morning

Tired. Didn't get to bed until late because of the neighbor's dogs, and I'm feeling the lack of sleep and stress.

Stressed... I still need to replace my car. But I can't find anything that I like. I like my old car, but it's almost 16 years old, so it feels like it could have major problems any second. But it's so darn cute! And it's a hatchback, so lots of space to carry things, without being ginormous.

I'm also shocked that a) "ginormous" is actually a word that the spell-checker recognizes and b) I spelled it right!

I’m feeling okay.

My package just came that I have been waiting for for 3 weeks so I am very happy about that.

I am drowsy and sleep, I feel ok though...….will relax before putting my Christmas tree up.

Depressed this afternoon

Feeling angry, fearful, and anxious about all the dead ends in my life in 2019. Thinking the dream I had about the exploding elevator this morning, was my subconscious mind telling my conscious mind to find outlets to deal with these 3 repressed feelings like right now vs. repressing them.

On a side note: a huge package arrived for my mother at her nursing home. It was from Spain. I was excited until I opened it (we don't know anyone in Spain) and saw that it was just the nursing home's inventory of padded diapers for her. I laughed out loud for a few minutes, then put them in her bathroom and gave the inventory invoice to the nursing station.

Padded diapers imported from Spain--pretty fancy. Glad you at least got a chuckle out of that in the midst of the other stuff. Hoping you get a good sleep and feel better tomorrow.

I am flat and really tired. But I also received two packages from UPS last night, I guess, earlier tonight. Man, those UPS guys and gals are working serious hours--they dropped my stuff off after 7.

LOL!! I know, right?! Like, this is a pretty fancy schmancy nursing home (she's only there b/c of her elderly waiver -- otherwise one room in the memory care unit is $5000-7500 a month). I mean, the box said "imported from Spain." I was like, um, they could have just bought them at Walgreens.

I got some sleep. Since I don't offer my roommate food from my own meals anymore, I have to leave it to her to feed herself. I'm not her PCA. She never makes a sound from her bedroom. But I know she's still alive b/c I'll wake up and she's turned down the thermostat or turned off the lights. I can't wait to get out of here.

I hope you were able to get some sleep as well!

Hope you got some nice gifts for yourself. Yes, those UPS/FedEx drivers are awesome people. They are run ragged!

I had a sore throat this morning but am feeling better now.

I feel ok right now.

Mixed emotions this morning

So-so. I am attempting to do some writing and post on tnis site. I have a tendancy to isolate. Yeah, that's how I feel, a lot. Confused.

I'm still extremely angry that some jerk was allowed to piss all over my parade and tried to take my happiness from me, and tried to trigger my PTSD so they could be a know-it-all snot. I'm trying to not let it continue to trigger me; this person clearly needs a lot of professional help. I keep trying to remind myself to consider the source. Rude remarks from someone who couldn't find their way out of a paper bag make no difference in my life.