How Are You Feeling Right Now? #5

I am sleepy, drowsy, tired!

Still the same

I’ve just had this off and on anxiety all day. If I could just get some type of news about anything, I think I would feel some relief. If my package would come. If my letter would come. Waiting is driving me crazy. Even not knowing when the next season of Drag Race is coming out is driving me bonkers.

Concerned over my upcoming mammogram tomorrow. Its routine. I experienced an abnormal one 20 years ago and ever since then I worry. BTW that one was found to be nonmalignant. I wish everyone well here.

Just want to sleep, maybe it’s cold weather and feeling out of sorts with sore throat, not sleeping well. My plan is to start a sleep schedule, practice good sleep hygiene, and even keep a sleep journal to track my progress towards better sleep.

I'm feeling okay right now. Struggling with anxiety going to sleep and depression over life circumstances, but I'm actively trying to do enjoyable things to not ruminate.

i slept for nearly three hours tonight, which is pretty good for me, but I am just so, so, so behind on sleep that I am still super-tired. Kind of makes me sad that there just seems no way for me to sleep. I look at my bed like it's the enemy. The only thing I know would work is a bunch of benzos, and I won't do that, because they make my depression a lot worse.

Remaining philosophical about life. Trying to play my cards right and just gain some kind of humility through all this. I need to destroy the ego once and for all.

I am sombre but painting on a smile, I don't want to be depressed when I meet my niece
and drag her mood down, I want her to enjoy her time with me.

Mixed emotions

Want to cry. Want to SH. Guess I'm not feeling that great right now.

Someone from high school friended me on Facebook and I think she wants to be nosy and she’s liking all my stuff right now. But I’m like go ahead, I can guarantee I’ve had it way better then you since high school.

Nostalgic, sad, hopeless and guilty

I don't like to be negative but for the first time in my life I really wish I could rewind or shake a magic wand to fix things -_- i used to like to work and challenges but this time I feel a bit beyond after what happened this year
Not functional thoughts

Depressed this afternoon

Pretty good.

I feel really good and happy and contented.
My niece and I saw the film Star Wars tonight, it was good, we enjoyed it.
After the film we had a lovely meal at a restaurant.
My niece is an awesome young lady, she is fun to spend time with, she cheered me up tonight
and made me feel good, we had some lovely chats and she made me laugh.
I feel lucky to have her in my life. I feel loved by her and she makes me smile always.
She made me forget how upset I am over the election result.

Anxious and depressed this morning

I have decided to stay 'neutral' today about everything that's pending in my life. Until I have reason to panic, neutrality is going to keep me calm and focused.

I found out my campus has a student food shelf. So, I can get food there 3x a week this winter. Thank god!! This will tide me over until I my appeal date for SNAP food stamps comes up.
I will go to a re-employment session today, and can ask if my unemployment benefits approval can be expedited. Not that they will b/c it IS the county. But asking gives me the illusion of having control. Which I don't. If I ask, whatever answer I'm given will keep me focused.
And, I picked up my towed car from the impound lot today. So I'm happy to have transportation again.
I asked my roommate's sister to approve my renting a room at her sister's for another 2 months. I hope she approves it.

Anxious right now. I thought I would be better off ordering a Frappuccino this morning instead of a cold brew because I thought they didn’t have any coffee in them. But I looked online, and the one I just finished had 130 milligrams of caffeine. Which is quite a lot. So with that on top of the Mountain Dew I had earlier, no wonder my anxiety sucks right now.

Cold brewed coffee has less acid and less caffeine than hot brewed coffee. Much better for you than the sugary pop.

Thanks. I’ve just been trying to lower my caffeine in general and I had no idea an “eggnog” Frappuccino would have caffeine in it. The cold brew had 315 milligrams. So I still went with the better one.

Yeah high acid + high caffeine content = anxiety attack. At least for me. I had to switch to decaf 20 years ago b/c even now, if a barista accidentally makes my mochas with caffeine, that means I suffer anxiety attacks on/off and sweat for about 5 to 6 hours until my body processes the caffeine completely. Glad your coffee choice didn't give you an anxiety attack.

Anxious right now.

Anxious this afternoon

Full....ate too much at my work Christmas luncheon.