Checking in: how are you?

I’m exhausted. It’s been a long week for a short week. 1.5 more days to go!

See my pdoc today. It’s long overdue!

Feeling overwhelmed, severely unmotivated, and just overall depressed. Yesterday was decent, but I can't seem to pull it together today, and feeling guilty over that.

Me too. Stupid holidays always mess me up, disrupting my routine and making the week feel longer, not shorter.

I was able to wear a hoodie today which made me happy. My pain was still rough. I had my first PT session and it went very well. She is very willing to help me and set up
weekly appointments through October and told me what was up and what she would do to fix things with my help. I had to move a couple therapy appointments around afterwards and she was understanding and nice. I'm a bit achy from the exam the PT did. Especially in my right side. Overall today was good besides my mom being crabby with me because my almost 1 year old niece is starting to become a terror now that she is crawling.

Pretty tired. But good.

I'm doing awesome to say the least. I am laughing every day. I ordered myself some food from a restaurant from Uber Eats.

Awful but it will pass in a day or so. I'm upset because I never seem to be worth any effort to people, just a bare minimum. I know that ultimately my worth isn't measured by the opinion of others or how much they care about me but it still triggers me, every time. So, I'm triggered and it will pass and then I will go on begging for affection and approval from people who love me (?!) and then I'll get upset again... I hate my life!

Eh…so so got my clothes in the wash.

3-4 weeks off work is a long time …

I'm feeling a bit better after getting upset/triggered. Sometimes it lasts a few days but my husband addressed it and we talked a bit (enough) about what happened.

I didn't sleep very good last night but my moods and anxiety are fine.

I want to go.

I've been putting off a bunch of chores but I finally just got my *** out of bed this afternoon, and got my laundry started and my room cleaned up. So I'm heading in the right direction.

Today i am very depressed and regreful and as much as i tried to manage it i couldnt

Sleep deprived.

Took an extra magnesium last night and I am walking around like a zombie. Acck.
This week was hard. Yest I spent a full hour on the phone with a disability atty. He declined the case "not enough meat on the bones". I'd rather have that response in the end. But being in the middle is rough. Hard for me to keep jobs and be super reliable. Anyway! Thx for letting ;me vent. One more promising interview Monday and then I am going to focus on getting remote work out of my home office. I don't seem to play as well with others now.

I had super bad anxiety around 2 this morning. Then I got it under control and I fell back asleep fairly quickly and I woke up at 8. I turned on the news but I still couldn't pull myself out of bed. My mom got me coffee and a soda and by 10 I was finally able to get out of bed and take a shower since I had an appointment today. After taking a shower I felt a lot better and I feel a ton better after my PT appointment and I'm in quite a good mood right now.

I’m feeling peaceful this morning.

all kinds of achy.
achy legs, achy arms, achy stomach, achy back

depressed too more than you could know

Feeling okay. I had a fairly peaceful night and set a boundary this morning that was accepted immediately by the other person, which feels good.

Feeling pretty good. Really miss being here on this site. I haven't been here in a long time due to fact I am on not on computers much anymore. I used to be obsessed with the internet for a long time, but just don't feel that anymore.

I am okay for now, hopefully, I will be okay tomorrow too.

Sounds good FP!

I’m doing good, but it’s not even perfect. I will need to see what I can do to make it that way.

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