It's the wait that is killing me... *triggerish*

When you KNOW that someone you care about is going to die really soon and it's just a matter of time ... it really kills.

*triggerish*


My aunt has cancer, had lung cancer and had the lobe removed - now she has brain cancer and more than one tumor and more spots on her brain. And a blood clot in the artery in her leg. She's on constant morphine for the pain... I saw her back in October and I hate seeing her so miserable and sick. I really am trying to be supportive of my dad (it's his sister) and whatnot but I hate this ...

Now I've been home for the holidays and my family's one dog (we've got 2 dogs, 2 cats) is very sick. Sporadically coughing and has tumors all over his body. I don't want to lose my baby, he's been the only one of my entire family to always be there for me for the last 12 years. (He's not in pain though even with all of that). I consider him my baby because he's the one thing that's kept me going -- and my avatar is a reminder of him (he's a beagle).

I don't want to lose them ... this is what's on my mind right now. And during the holidays too.

I can only offer my support and love.... I'm so sorry hon....
(((((((((((((( Christina ))))))))))))))

((((((((((((Christina)))))))))) I went through it with my dad, too. Having it be expected doesn't make it one bit easier.

Be good to you -- take care of yourself.

Love, Candy

((((canders)))) I know how you feel. yes the waiting is really hard and seems to get harder the closer it gets. take care of yourself hon.

<font color="purple"> (((((((((( Christina ))))))))) i'm so sorry to hear what u are going threw...i know that it's really hard to loose a pet also...i completely understand u...and supporting your dad right now...must be hard at times...make sure in all of this that u make some ME time and try to escape a little from what is happening...i know it can be really hard to do that..but sometimes it's the only way...to really be able too get some strenght back...geeeze i hope i made sense take care of yourself sweetie.

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Thanks (((((((((((everyone))))))))))))) for your support.

I think I'm going to ask for an early birthday present from my family, and ask them to take my baby dog to the vet to see if anything that can be done (except being put down. ) for him. That's all I want for my birthday, is my baby dog to be alive and remotely healthy.

That makes me selfish doesn't it.

((((((((((((((((((Christina))))))))))))))))))))

Hon,
I'm so sorry about your Aunt. Death is such a hard thing to endure. Especially, when someone go's slowly and you see them suffering. I truly am sorry.
Absolutely not, you are NOT selfish. To want your dog to get better isn't being selfish. It isn't for you, it's for your dog. I, personally, think it's a wonderful idea for you to ask your family to take your dog to the vet.
I understand completely. I have a cat that I have had for about nine years and she has developed a cough, and I am afraid of what it could be. My husband and I decided to take her to the vet to see if he could help her.
Our pets are our babies. She sleeps with me everynight.
So, I do understand.
I wish the very best for you and your Dad and his sister and your dog.
Take care and let us know how things are going.
Linda

I still have trouble when the phone rings because of waiting for "the call" about my Dad (so when I moved I got a phone that I could program the ring tone to be different from what I was use to). Can you write something about your aunt that might help you? I had an aunt who died and I wrote a piece (about me :-) starting from my first memory of her and up through the years, how she had influenced me and what "lived on" in me because of her. It gave me a little more comfortable feeling of closure and/or connection to her. I have an item or two from other aunts, either things they've given me or that I asked for, simple things (a couple interesting glasses from her kitchen in one case) that remind me of them when I look at/use the objects.

I'm glad you're going to ask your family to have your dog checked out. I had a boss ask me to accompany her with her family's pet to the vet and I didn't quite get it (we worked out of her basement, just the two of us) but now I understand how important it is to have others help us with the experience if possible.

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...........not unless your dog hasn't got a quality of life that he/she enjoys......it's natural for you to wish for good health for a loved pet......

Thanks (((((((((everyone))))))))))))))



My baby is fine and isn't in pain, I just worry that it will get worse and I don't want that to happen.

I'm so afraid I'll get a call about my aunt from my dad and I won't know how to deal with it. Need to be there for my dad but any sort of loss really kills me.

Just need to not be so mopey and pray for the best I guess.

(((((((((((((((Christina))))))))))))))

I'm so sorry i hadn't seen this post earlier ... and I can only imagine how you are feeling right now. I've never had anyone close to me be really sick like that ... or any pets for that matter, but know that i am always, always here for you. you have been such a good friend, and help to me and i want you to know that no matter what, no matter what time of day (or night) i am here, 100% and completely.

Take good care of you,
Jacq

Thank you so very much ((((((((((Jacq))))))))))

At least I'm going back to residence tomorrow so it will be a bit easier. I might bother you tonight just to say hello though