Challenges

I guess I always seek admiration and do things to get there. I must admit that this is probably not beneficial to my cause but it's too easy to get caught up in this. Part of being what I am? Yes i'm sure of it but I do wish I could be better in the sense of not doing so(really?). Sure I anticipate the responses of then just do it or try harder but not so simple. Probably cause I enjoy it too much and even if it's not helpful it entertains a part of me. I know I have been known to stir the pot every now and again. You know there was a time when I wrote all about the real me and the issues I was having. I guess it's easier to fall into what I have been rather than what i'm trying to do. I have had so many loyal fans that it's really their fault that I haven't done better. Your acknowledgments have only made stay who I have been. Just like a person with NPD to blame everyone else,right? I suppose I am weak in that sense, to go along with the crowd and to keep them entertained. From here on out I will probably do the same things I always do. I bet you thought for a sec I was gonna change. HA HA, because of some of you I will never get better. Thank you for keeping me real!! Just some words for thought.
Most sincerely,
Underground

Well, you have a point. Why get better when it seems that people do nothing but reinforce your pathology? Praise you for it?

If you're constantly being praised for having NPD or showing the behaviors associated with it, of course you're going to have very little reason to change.

OK, how can we help the "real you"? How can we support what you are trying to do instead of "enabling" the old responses that you (and we/me, too) fall into?

That's a struggle I understand, I sent an email to both of my children last week telling them that I was going to consciously try to be the new me and not fall back into old ways that I, and they, were used to relating to.

And maybe it's time to say "goodbye" to your loyal fans here sometimes and try out some of the other forums? What's the worst that can happen?

No way, I love my fans!!!! I have always been some type of famous just not in the Hollywood way.