Repetitive intrusive images and thoughts

What about repetitive thoughts that one has said or written something inappropriate, such as swearing at ones employer or writing hate-filled letters to a friend?!!!!!



I know I would never do anything like that but I have intrusive thoughts and it feels like my mind created the thought and my mind created a false memory that my mind blanked out and I wrote an innapropriate letter about my roomate and put the letter in his computer desk , but I know deep down inside I never went thru his computer desk to hide a letter and I know that I have control of myself and I know it didn't happen. But I guess the intrusive thoughts and pure o is making me feel like I did , and I'm having a hard time believing what is real and what isn't

Please help me with feedback please

Please you guys I need help please

I read your other post, too, and see you have no insurance. I would contact the county health department and see if they can help find you a doctor to see. I can understand these thoughts being very distrubing to you and feel you need to see a doctor with hopes of a medication that can stop these thoughts. If you start feeling like you are going to hurt someone or yourself go to the ER.

I would never hurt anyone or myself

I just have intrusive thoughts that I sent an innapropriate letter or email to a friend

Most of us are capable of doing a lot of things giving the right context.

When you say, "I know I would never do anything like that," are you certain you wouldn't because you are so highly moral a person? so kind that others always come first? you would be too afraid of getting caught and punished? You would be too ashamed afterward to show your face?

There are things I wouldn't do (like berate my boss in public) because of the price I'd pay for doing it. Thoughts of what I might say or do to the boss might eventually obsess me, especially is she has pretty much total control over my life and I'm feeling helpless. It would be an unhealthy.

If you're having thoughts of sending inappropriate messages to friends, consider the context. Would you want to send them if you could do so anonymously? Is there any basis to these thoughts, and you judge them "wrong?" For example, if your best friend would die for you but is always asking you to shop for her, run errands, do things--you might feel that she takes advantage, even though she'd do anything for you ... but you'd never ask her to do much.

Is this making any sense? I think you need to find a pro bono therapist, because I suspect it's a very complicated situation.

Be good to yourself.
Roadie

How is it a complicated situation ?

I know I would never do anything like that
It's intrusive thoughts that are very difficult to fight

I was just on the phone with my father , I'm starting my job at a restaraunt tomorrow at 9am

I told my father an example of what I've been going through

I told him this could happen throughout the day or when I wake up all of a sudden I get a though saying "" u called a friend on ur phone and left a grusome evil terrible message and hung up the phone then went to recent calls and deleted it

It's this evil thoughts that come in and then I'm in a battle mentally if I did this or not

Once again very terrible

No and I wouldn't wanna send the messages if it was annomynous either


I don't wanna send any messages

I just want peace

Helpme2013, do you have some sort of old concern with your roommate or something that you wanted to say to him but never did? Maybe there is a nagging thought because something was left open, and now you are manifesting it into this letter. Do you and your roommate get along? Was there any disagreement?

Yeah me and my roomate get along okay

I don't know why the intrusive thoughts happen and I want my life back

Im sorry they are distressing you so much Have you tried cutting back on the weed yet? I hope the job goes well.

Someone on this forum gave me some advice about intrusive thoughts, see them as annoying children. They have no more power over you than an annoying child does. The more you stress about them the worse it will get, so chill out, see them as thoughts you cannot help and try your best to ignore them and move on with your day instead of dwelling and upsetting yourself.

Thanks

One with these symptoms shall
Never give up there fight against intrusive thoughts

One day it's the fear of saying something innapropriate to someone

The next day it's severe harm-ocd

I'm thinking about going to the mental hospital because of my "harm-ocd"

I wish it would all go away

Im having real success lately with thoughts while I meditate. I havent tried much with intrusive thoughts yet but it might be worth giving it a go.

Step back from your intrusive thoughts, instead of being caught up in them - observe them. I like to see my thoughts in a bubble and watch them pass and float away.

Hospitals will lock you up and people get all worried when you say you are having thoughts like this because they rarely understand that it IS just a thought and you are VERY unlikely to act on it (if it is OCD). If I went to hospital every time I had one I would never be able to leave and I am so thankful I have a team now who realise these thoughts do not mean I will become violent.

I understand how scary it is, my intrusive thoughts were telling me to throw a child off a 2nd story balcony the other day. That really upset me - and still does as I NEVER want to do that. But it is an intrusive thought, that is how they work. They single out the worst possible thing that could come to mind and make you have urges to do it.

You will need to wait a few weeks to let the effects of the weed wear off. If they are still that bad, then see your pdoc and think about meds. But honestly no meds have been able to stop them for me.

Meditation has helped somewhat and just seeing them for what they are and letting them go has been most beneficial.

I'm scared man

Yesterday I woke up feeling okay , I kept on telling myself when I was having intrusive thoughts about saying something inappropriate to someone " I accept that I do not accept these thoughts "

And it helped me a little bit

I live with my roomate his wife and kid, and our other guy friend

I went to take a shower

Then went to the kitchen

What bothers me about there kitchen is they leave the cleaning chemicals on top of there fridge

I made a sandwich and got a cup of milk

The cleaning chemicals on top of there fridge has triggered the scary thoughts that I poisoned milk and food in the fridge

It's terrible thoughts

So all of a sudden I was having thoughts in my head after I finished eating that I poisoned food and drinks in the fridge

It was terrible mentally for me yesterday and today also

I kept on telling myself I would not do that

I kept on telling myself I have no memory whatsoever of ever touching any of the cleaning chemicals on top of the fridge

I feel awful cause of these thoughts

And I just would never do anything like that

It's terrible how these thoughts come in and destroy the mind and body cause u see cleaning products

I have a feeling that if there weren't any cleaning products on there fridge I wouldn't even have these thoughts

I know I didnt do anything like this to our food and drinks

I've been thinking about moving out cause I've been feeling terrible lately

I wanna move back with my mom and dad

But now these thoughts have manifested to " what if I poison food and drinks at my parents house"

It's like I'm scared of going back to my parents house now cause of this

And I love my parents so much

I never wanna hurt anyone , and I never want to hurt my parents

It's soooo scary that I have these thoughts and it's the fear that since
I'm obsessing and having thoughts about being at my parents house and poisoning food and drinks there that it might or will happen

I'm so scared

I'm thinking about going to a mental hospital