[maxmax123]

I have a strange problem.i don't want to remember the activities of a day if somebody known or unknown dies on that day, because i keep thinking that that day was not a good for me.i experience very much anxiety in remembering the activities since someone was died on that day.but i don't want to do that i want to remember the activities of that day because those acvities are important for me to remember.but i can't do that

again if i do something repeatedly for some day(for example taking important lesson) and on the final day if somebody known or unknown dies then i even don't want to remember the whole lesson of those days, since sombody died on the final day.i keep thinking final day is the most important. i feel so much anxious in remembering, But i have to remember those activities/things since these are very important for me. so i try to do the same activitity/thing(for example taking lesson)over and over again on another day when i never heard of anybody's death.i feel then only i will be able to remember the whole thing because nobody have died on that day(final day).But i don't want do this repeatation,at the same time i want to remember those activities/things. But i can't,i feel very very anxious.i am feeling hopeless. i don't know this is obsessive compulsive disorder(OCD) or not. I can't cope up with the situation. Plz Plz Help me and how to solve this problem???

[Lenny]

Hi max and welcome to PC...

We can't possibly diagnose you here or on any public forum. My suggestion would be to fins a competent therapist in your area and discuss with them,,your issues...

But for an informational and research base in forming some of your questions for therapy...many people suffer various degrees of death anxiety. The sources of this anxiety has many aspects including psychosocial maturity levels, feeelings of powerlessnes and lack of control and ego integrity(feeling a level of worthiness in one's life).

It can be difficult to accept one's own mortality but finding purpose in one's life and a developement of a deep Faith can lessen the emotional concern...

Best to you...

Lenny

[BalishBun]

I do not know how to solve that problem, I am sorry. Maybe someone will read over your post that has gone through this before and be able to relate. Just give it some time.