[xxcrashxheartsxx]

i get sexual thoughts about my brother sometimes and i try to block them out but i see images in my head sometimes before i can stop them. i want to do anything to get rid of them but i can't and i feel so disgusting and dirty. I feel like crying whenever i think about it but i can't stop the thoughts sometimes
I want to talk to my psychologist when i start seeing her again but i'm so afraid she won't think this is part of OCD and will make me feel bad about it and like act like i actually want to do these things with him! i'm so scared and i dont know what to do.
i'm really afraid to share this but sometimes when my brother is around and the thoughts try to come up into my head i start feeling weird down there but i don't want it in my head! i don't want to do anything with him and i don't feel like i do with crushes with him. so why is this happening? Is this just brought on along with the sexual thoughts or does it mean i really want him?
I looked this up and i found this on wikipedia
"However, the sufferer's constant focus on not becoming aroused or checking that they do not become aroused may lead to 'groinal response'. Many OCD sufferers take this groinal response as actual arousal, when in reality it is not."
So maybe it's just normal (well within the disorder)? i only get a little bit of lubrication but i freak out so bad! i don't want this to happen! what's wrong with me?
Please help me and tell me what you think or if you have experience with this too. i'm too afraid to tell my psychologist. i'm 16 if it means anything

Hey there,

Sorry to hear that you're struggling with intrusive thoughts! I have OCD as well, and 95% of my OCD is just dealing with obsessions and intrusive thoughts. They're very scary, very embarrassing, and feel very real.

What you're experiencing is definitely within the OCD range, and I encourage you to bring it up with your psychologist. She can talk to you about intrusive thoughts, and the best techniques to cope with them. (One of the worst techniques, by the way, is to try pushing the thoughts away. They will only come back stronger!)

I was 16 when I was diagnosed too, by the way. :P I'm 18 now.

[perpetuallysad]

I would say that it is like ohseedee says, they are most definitely intrusive thoughts. I have very bad intrusive thoughts as well and I am really impressed with your ability to admit the things you think. I've never even admitted the content of my thoughts to my pdoc/t, so you are very brave. I think the wiki thing is pretty accurate (surprisingly!) too. You are worrying so much that its causing reactions. When you are talking to your psychologist, if it would make you more comfortable, you can say you are having "inappropriate" sexual thoughts, and not go into more details about who, either way though, she will most likely say this is because of the ocd and not that you are weird.
I hope things get easier for you.

[LyDiaHate]

Hey
I Know How you feel i get this a lot :l..I force myself to think about things crawling on my leg and once in the bath i actualy saw them..it was Horrible I do it all the time with thoughts i dont wanna think about.Mine is a lot worse when i am Unhappy or fed up.
I think the best thing is to do something when you get these thoughs like things that you enjoy doing..or even tidy up to take your mind of off these thoughts.
Remember they will pass :/
I think it would be a real good idea to tell you therapist talk to her/him could help you a lot

Take care ♥

[DfendrOfEmilysHeart]

I had one once too. It freaked the hell outta me.

[Sventek]

Here's a technique for thought stopping that you might want to try.

Hold something in your hand that has some detail or an interesting shape. Without looking at it at all, explore it with your sense of touch. Really try to discern every detail of the item, and commit it to memory. The aim is to gather as much detail as possible, so that you could do a pretty good drawing of it from memory.

While you keep exploring the object, look at a picture or something with quite a bit of detail. Looking out the window works well. Memorise every detail you can see - again, the aim is to be able to do a pretty good drawing from memory later on.

Now, while you keep doing BOTH of those things, count backwards from 100 in your head.

Your thoughts will be stopped quite quickly, especially if you practice this technique.

Once you've stopped them, it's important to then go and do something that you enjoy, but requires concentration. Examples include reading, crosswords, etc.

[budimir787]

These unwanted sexual thoughts are making me crazy too! I feel hopeless and really don't want to live any more!

[budimir787]

I am dealing with the same problem! These UNWANTED sexual thoughts are going to kill me - I just don't want to live any more! I know I don't want any of those things that pup up in my head, but there is always a doubt - "maybe you want to do that" and then I start thinking about that even more to prove myself I would never do something like that! After a while I can't tell any more what the truth is and I just want do die!!!! These are not thoughts that I enjoy thinking about, there is nothing I enjoy about them! But when you feel like you got aroused, you ask yourself if this is actually real?
Please help! Am I crazy?