[spacecase]

I feel like im stuck in my head and I can't get out. I can't talk to people, well I CAN but I physically feel like it's just difficult. I don't kknow how to describe it. I just feel so heavy, I if I did talk to someone rightnow, I don't feel they would actually listen or care. I'm just so lost and confused I don't understand what's going on in my head and I want out of it so bad.

[trs60586]

I understand your feelings and frustration. I too have always had a very tough time expressing myself verbally. And yes it feels like it takes so much work to have anything resembling even a short conversation. It's like the wiring between the part of my brain where thoughts originate, the part of it that turns those thoughts into coherent strings of words, and the part that controls the diaphragm, vocal cords, mouth and tongue to verbalize the string of words is always short circuited. There is almost never a continuous free-flowing stream of speech. It makes me that much more self conscious and frequently just give up as it isn't worth the effort.

[mum2four]

Originally Posted by spacecase

I feel like im stuck in my head and I can't get out. I can't talk to people, well I CAN but I physically feel like it's just difficult. I don't kknow how to describe it. I just feel so heavy, I if I did talk to someone rightnow, I don't feel they would actually listen or care. I'm just so lost and confused I don't understand what's going on in my head and I want out of it so bad.

Its very common anxiety symptom if you have not talked to a Dr about it yet I would I did not talk about that feeling for most of my life and even then till years after starting therapy and once I did I was surprised to be told it I was not crazy that is was common.....the stuck feeling it so strange and for years I just thought I was crazy and lazy and stubborn but to told I was not has helped to lessen the fear which helps to pull my self threw feeling stuck.

[spacecase]

I'm even MORE confused now, because I feel just fine now. I just wanted to DIE just an hour ago, but now I feel good, like I just want to laugh and have fun. It's 3 in the morning and I'm totally awake. Thankfully I don't have to do anything tomorrow...

trs60586, that's exactly it. My friends tease me because I tend to not finish sentences, or just suddenly drop out of conversations or not even get involved in them because I can't keep up with them. It's annoying.... more to them than it is me. I'm just more of a listener than I am a talker I guess. When I feel like I was describing above though, I meant that I just felt so down that I didn't have energy or interest in speaking to anyone. I almost felt like I was physically unable to speak. I know I probably could've, but I felt like I couldn't. I hate feeling like that.

[Llana]

oh God..I feel like that sometimes too.i feel stupid and foolish and self consciuos..but i think it has something to do with how I feel at that moment..it has something to do with my self esttem. When I feel ugly,I always experience that symptom..

[shezbut]

Originally Posted by spacecase

I'm even MORE confused now, because I feel just fine now. I just wanted to DIE just an hour ago, but now I feel good, like I just want to laugh and have fun. It's 3 in the morning and I'm totally awake. Thankfully I don't have to do anything tomorrow...

trs60586, that's exactly it. My friends tease me because I tend to not finish sentences, or just suddenly drop out of conversations or not even get involved in them because I can't keep up with them. It's annoying.... more to them than it is me. I'm just more of a listener than I am a talker I guess. When I feel like I was describing above though, I meant that I just felt so down that I didn't have energy or interest in speaking to anyone. I almost felt like I was physically unable to speak. I know I probably could've, but I felt like I couldn't. I hate feeling like that.

Sounds like you have a lot on your mind. I'd recommend that you see a doctor about these moods and behaviors that come and go ~ certainly a dissociation of some kind (I do that too). Best wishes spacecase

Shez

[GirlieGirl]

I understand your frustration. I am confused because my uncle went missing 2 weeks ago. Just hang in there and contact me if you want to talk.

[nightbird]

[vsh306]

OMG, now for probably 2-3 months been feeling similarly. Feel at times can't even hold my head up on my shoulders, speak in monosyllabic format when I'm usually the life of the party, and if necessary can still be but it takes so much out of me, I know I'll be down (as in not functioning, staring at TV, doing laundry, menial labor is all I can actually do, happily I might add, at least I get something done) for days. So basically I stay away from social situations unless forced or I have to carefully schedule them so I have days or 7 or 8 hours in between in order to go to bed, relax, do menial tasks or nothing. I take it personal when I have to be somewhere and only place i actually like going is to therapist. Other than that, can take it or leave it. If you knew me before you'd be like my friends, they think I'm being rude to them or they say extraordinarily stupid things like, "you're so strong, buck up" or something similar, which is now pissing me off royally. Or they say some version of "God will help you"...now that one is even worse, really have they not listened to me for years on that topic. But back to the point, at best I can fire off single words (fabulous, fantastic, perfect for good things; terrible, unbelievable, tragic for bad things) and that seems to work with inflection for most people. Then they don't ask you stupid questions.

[vsh306]

I feel that way too and only in the last couple of months. I was always the talker though and paid handsomely to do so. Now you cannot convince me to get on the phone and much less to do anything social. Dont feel like talking. One thing I did do was practice, write down one word answers I felt were socially acceptable, this helped bridge some of the issues I felt in trying to communicate. But I'm so puzzled at my behavior. Am seeing a therapist but feel like not making progress...I mean 50 minutes...I need someone to listen like 23 hours in a row and only maybe will it all get out. Then it would be ideal for them to tell me what the hell is wrong so I can set about fixing it...that would be awesome. I can type way better than talk right now, so joined the forum. And I agree, nothing to live for most hours but can be high by cleaning my bathroom for an hour or two and think I'm good at something. So weird for me. I don't understand it at all.

Originally Posted by spacecase

I'm even MORE confused now, because I feel just fine now. I just wanted to DIE just an hour ago, but now I feel good, like I just want to laugh and have fun. It's 3 in the morning and I'm totally awake. Thankfully I don't have to do anything tomorrow...

trs60586, that's exactly it. My friends tease me because I tend to not finish sentences, or just suddenly drop out of conversations or not even get involved in them because I can't keep up with them. It's annoying.... more to them than it is me. I'm just more of a listener than I am a talker I guess. When I feel like I was describing above though, I meant that I just felt so down that I didn't have energy or interest in speaking to anyone. I almost felt like I was physically unable to speak. I know I probably could've, but I felt like I couldn't. I hate feeling like that.