Having a high then...

Natural high that is. I'm in a chipper mood...but still, I feel very unstable. Maybe too chipper...I'm laughing too much, saying jokes that aren't too funny. I'd say I'm maniac, but I feel that I can at least control it a little bit. What do you think?

Anyway, I fear of crashing. I'm scared that I will become depressed and something will trigger it. Being both on a nat. high, and depressed on the same day makes me feed like crud. My relationship with my friends is not the same. The up side is that I'm more carefree and happy.

This doesn't happen too often btw, so I'm convinced that bipolar isn't a possibility in any way.

But what do I do if I crash? I DREAD becoming depressed, but I do remember this happening to me before. I crashed a bit...I was in a crap mood.

So, today, I seemed really crazy. Happy and all...but later on, I became depressed. The weather is eh today so that really could be a reason!

But still. I don't know what to think. I have only PC to turn to regarding this. No place else because I have my reasons...

Keep on posting, opaquemind. Hope tomorrow is a better day.

What you are describing could be just normal reactions on any given day. I think you do need to talk to someone professional about this just to be sure that nothing more is needed. Too many people like to label things when, sometimes, it's just not necessary. I hope that you talk to someone soon, because you seem really concerned. For whatever reasons you have, for not talking to someone else besides PC, I won't ask. I wish I could tell you more; we're all here for each other. Take Care...♥

TheB- Thank you. Today was slightly better. I couldn't describe my feelings. I was still a bit wacko today.. I couldn't stop being a foolish person. Nothing was that funny that I had to LOL about, but I over laughed...I'm probably annoying people. I care about what others think, so it brings me down when I think about this.

Squaw- Thank you too! I talked to my c. today. I'll talk to him soon, maybe Monday..I'll try to talk about my recent moodyness. I think that I'm doing the same things and I get the same feelings daily, but recently, these feelings have worsened. I'm too crazy, and starting to worsen in depression. I had trig. thoughts too. It wasn't anything to be concerned about I suppose (that's what I think). I won't do anything anyway..
Ugh. I dunno. I feel crappy. The reason why I was seem concerned is bc this happened last year. I don't seem the same and I'm not quite sure why.

Basically, hs can be a toughy...I think it might be a phase but it feels worse right now.

You sound like a very smart person for starters, and I would like to see this problem resolved soon. I understand HS is very trying, but think about when you are old enough to be out on your own. Will that be easier? You definitely need to see a professional about this and get a handle on what the problem is. You are much too young to be stressing over anything but everyday school problems. I know that may sound foolish, but I know what you are describing is very real to you. Please talk to someone that is willing to listen and actually help you. Take Care of You, for Your Sake... HUGS.......♥

Oh Squaw, thank you!
Yes, I want this to be over soon too! Frankly, it could be the weather, the last time this happened was around the same time last year...actually, a month or two eariler, but the same season nevertheless.

Hmm, yesh. The real world. *shudders* I've certainly thought about that. I was hoping to wait until I became old enough to go to a doc or T alone. But that doesn't seem like the case. It's so frustrating because I don't want my parents to know..maybe later on in life, but not now. They don't seem like the people to turn to.

Lol, I stress out a lot! But the c. I went to helped a great deal! He even called me Miss Anxiety 2009. :P
Oh nono, that doesn't sound foolish! It's real to me, but if only people other than PC could just understand!
I'll probably just talk to my c. sometime next week or the week after (crazy week in school next week, 3 early dismissals=no time to talk to him).

*sigh* If I could just care for myself alone..that would be nice.

Squaw, thank you again!