I am Obsessed with her....

I dont know why or even how but i have become obsessed with a female (not in a sexual way) its like i want her to be my mum.
The female is about 34 and i am 16 and i think about her ALL the time when she talks to me i go over and over what she said in my head..
I tell people that she is my mum e.g taxi drivers and people who would not know the truth.
My mum commited suicide when i was little .
I want this female to be my mum so bad it takes over my head and i am obsessed with her i cant stop thinking about her
It is not in a sexual way at all...its more like i want to be like her and for her to be my mum.
I want her to be my mum and i know she never can be and it makes me wanna die.
I do things so that she notices me thatget me into real trouble..i want her to know i self harm real bad.
I have no idea ...

Lydia, can you change the text in your post to another color so it will be easier for some people to see?

((( Lydia )))

How do you know this woman? Is it a friend or neighbor or someone from school?

When my mom left around your age I became very attached to my next boyfriend's mother, and in fact stayed in the relationship for nearly 3 years because of how attached I was to HER.

I am very sorry to hear about what happened when you were little, that has got to be very hard. I think you are really brave for coming here and sharing the way you feel. That is a really mature thing to do and you should be proud of yourself for that.

Can you tell your friend the way you feel? Or maybe write down the reasons why you admire her? What are some things about yourself that you see in her? Things that you like?

There is NOTHING wrong with having love for someone and looking up to them, we all need good examples to grow up with.

hey
Yeah i think its ok to have somebody to look up to aswell but i am obsessed with her and its ruining my life..

♥ Lydia

yeah it is normal to ahve somebody to look up to but like you say if they are taking over your life then its not ok .
Talk to your therapist and at least tell her .♥

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How are you doing, LyDiaHate?

I kinda feel this way about someone too, but not to the point of your case...It happens to be my wife and I cling to her when I'm depressed. If she falls asleep on the couch rather than our bed, I go nuts and can't sleep! Have you talked to someone about this feeling you're having?