[MacD]

I just feel unstable....I can't verbalize it...I can't seem to analyize it....and it scares me....I think it has to do with being disconnected from my family (though I know that being connected was damaging)...but still....familiar misery is still...well...familiar....and I feel like my anchors are gone....what's up?

boy, do i know that feeling. i'm connected to one sister. sometimes i feel so alone that my stomach just heaves........it's an awful feeling and i wish you didn't have it. i can't have a connection to my bro or the other sister. too toxic....so, even if you know that, it still hurts.....hang in there. grace, you're doing what is best for you and that matters...in the long round, your emotional health will be better....xoxo pat

[MacD]

Why is it so hard to ask for help?...Why is it so difficult to reveal your weakness?

because you might not get it..........and rejection stings, oh, does it sting........

[wi_fighter]

I find it difficult to reveal any weaknesses IRL because it seems there will always be someone just waiting to use it to their advantage at a later date.

[(JD)]

((((((hugs)))))) Perhaps you are experiencing anxiety? It's generalized when you can't put your finger on why... and might be considered "scaring yourself?" Try grounding, or centering yourself, breathe.. see if you feel any better. TC

[Miss_A]

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Why is it so hard to ask for help?...Why is it so difficult to reveal your weakness?

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I dunno but theres a time when you just want to scream...

[(JD)]

I think because it makes us vulnerable.. or feel more that way... and it makes us focus on it, makes it feel "more real?"

wow. all that sounds like me. I feel like i belong no where. I float from here to there hoping to find a home, but i feel like a stranger.

[MacD]

I,m scared...are you out there?

((((MacD)))))

[January]

I'm here, Grace. Find me.

((((((((((((((((((((((Grace)))))))))))))))))))))

Jan

[SweetSunshine]

Mac ~ to lighten things up just a bit here.
Yeah I do scare myself...... everytime I look in the mirror !!!!

But really yeah I know how you feel. Hang in there sweetie.

Hugz~
Bethy

[wisewoman]

My thinking scares me. I am too intense even for me. Try to find the glimpses of joy. Good luck.

[(JD)]

[jmo531]

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WOW!!! I am the same way. You are not alone Grace. Hang in there. Much love and peace to you.

Jen

[Hope4me2]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{MacD}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
when I feel like screaming my T tells me to go somewhere in the woods or a park where your alone and SCREAM loud and punch or hit on a tree...........get your feelings out...........I told him they might lock me up if someone heard me and he said he would come to my rescue and get me out and tell them I was doing an assignment for him......sounds weird I know but I do scream in a pillow sometimes....
we are here for you and care deeply take care of yourself