[gypsymama]

I have been actively seeking psychiatric help after having 2 complete breakdowns (Bipolar 1, Depressive, severe with psychotic features, hi!) within 2 months of each other. I have been hospitalized against my will, forced to see a psychiatrist who is of no help, tried going to support groups only to feel rejected. And this is on top of the original traumas that caused the breakdowns, and all of the ongoing issues my family is putting me through everyday, plus constantly arguing with my partner. How much can one take before they crack under the pressure again? I still haven't worked out the original issues because I have no one I trust to talk to! So I have pretty much no help or support!!! No one in my area accepts my insurance anymore, so I am stuck with the psychiatrist I have. All I want is to get better. I'm starting to worry that it's not going to happen any time soon.

[Gabi925]

No... but I supposed it had taken some time to be put down. It takes time to get back. But you still can write, talk coherently and have friends around in a world in which you grown up. Outside is a nice world, here a lot of interesting, helpful people.
I am somehow in the same situation; other version and of course... worse (maybe because it is mine) so better not to talk anymore. You need people to tell you how is better, not how it could be worse!
You are beautiful, young and have so many stars... to read in :-)

[sugahorse1]

Hey there. Pleasae understand that while hospitalisation was against your will, I really believe it was for the better and for your safety.
Maybe do your own research into psychiatric meds, and present some ideas to your p-doc. I'm sorry you feel he is not helping and that you have no-one else to go to. When you were hospitalised, did you not have access to other doctors? Speak to your insurance that they are wasting their money with this pdoc and u want to go to another one.

Maybe you can travel a bit to another pdoc? I have a friend who stays in town, and has access to probably 100 different pdoc's, but she chooses to travel 1.5 hours to the one she helps her the most. You need to step out of your comfort zone (Easier said than done, I know) and put your health first

(HUGS)

[gypsymama]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

Hey there. Pleasae understand that while hospitalisation was against your will, I really believe it was for the better and for your safety.
Maybe do your own research into psychiatric meds, and present some ideas to your p-doc. I'm sorry you feel he is not helping and that you have no-one else to go to. When you were hospitalised, did you not have access to other doctors? Speak to your insurance that they are wasting their money with this pdoc and u want to go to another one.

Maybe you can travel a bit to another pdoc? I have a friend who stays in town, and has access to probably 100 different pdoc's, but she chooses to travel 1.5 hours to the one she helps her the most. You need to step out of your comfort zone (Easier said than done, I know) and put your health first

(HUGS)

I have basic Medicare, and thanks to that wonderful new bill that was passed, even my primary care physician dropped me because everything came back from medicare completely unpaid. I have lost my access to most medical care, well, good medical care. I have Muscular Dystrophy, Fibromyalgia, Bipolar1, depressive severe with psychotic features, Anxiety NOS, and more, and right now I receive little medical care. I can get my 3 main scripts I need filled called in, that's about all. I can go to the hospital if I have an emergency. Trying to talk to Medicare is like asking a mountain to move. I have no problem going out of my "comfort zone", I am just running face first into brick walls every which way I turn. It's frustrating as hell!

And I had to sign a form saying that I would see this specific pdoc when I was in the psych hospital, or they wouldn't discharge me. If I miss an appointment or don't follow this pdocs' plan, I go straight back to the psych ward until I comply. And her plan is to do not much of anything, except take my anxiety medication away from me, and come back in a month. I told her what meds had helped during past episodes (I have been dealing with this for 18 years now), she just wrote them down. So I'm on Welbutrin and Topamax, which is what I was on when I had both of these episodes. Both at low doses that haven't been changed in a year, and I told the pdoc that. Might as well be sugar pills. That's the kind of crooked psych hospital I was thrown into. These places are not all helpful and healing places.

I'm just going to play their "game" and lie my way out. And when I'm finally out of their hands, I will get help. I thought maybe here I could just vent a little anonymously in the meantime.

[gypsymama]

Thanks for being nice folks, but this support group thing, it's not for me. Logging on here, going to support groups, it all makes me feel kinda worse not better.

gypsymama--I don't know where you live, but I am certain it is not in any of the more progressive and professional areas, where Mental Health is just as important as your physical health--Pick an ocean--East Coast--Maryland--through New England=

good care, with real docs, real medicine; West---you have Sidran, Mayo, etc---progessive medicine where they understand that mental health can affect Physical Health and is to take Priority, Objective and thorough evaluation by a truly well trained Psychiatrist.....this is my experience.

On the East Coast there are still Doctors who keep themselves updated on new neurological data...who are dedicated to "do no Harm"----where are you my friend?

I'm a mess out here in the desert, Doctors here want cash- no insurance--and the ones
they send me to through the WTC 9/11 First responders program are all quacks.

40 years of therapy--and i know the difference----I've been a mess since I left NYC
4 years ago.....any possibility that you can move?--even Maryland has some of the very best-Johns Hopkins--cost of living cheaper than NY.

Do not give uP!!!!! The Patients Bill of Rights applies throughout this country.

You have a right to refuse treatment, you have a right to your records, you have rights!!!!

Unless you are telling them you are a "danger to yourself, or to others".

Call the MHA in Washington DC---Obama could not have taken those rights away as well!!!-----Worried for you--Hugs to you--theo

Postscript: I was on Wellbutrin and topamax too---Now I have irreversible blurred vision--and anxiety attack/panic attack all the time

Mark my words- both of these meds will have Class action against them soon---
They cause(side e/fx) anxiety, palpitations, anorexia, insomnia etc---look it up on Wikipedia---They gave them to me out here for the first time--awful---especially if your situation is giving you further stress- they work against you.

Disclaimer: Work great for some--miracle for some-we are all unique.

[shezbut]

gypsymama,

I am sorry that Psych Central doesn't seem to be helping you through your emotions right now. Perhaps you need to step back a little bit, and think about it.

You do need help. That's something you readily admit. As we all know, "you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink."

I do understand your frustration with MA. I understand your fear of being stuck with haphazard mental health professionals, assuming that they're too busy and/or uneducated to be of any help. That isn't a fair judgement though. A significant portion of mental health providers do care. You being safe is their #1 concern. That is a fact.

Don't worry about this big mess of MA right now. It is a mess, and confusing, but they will clean it up. They simply have to! Your number one concern really ought to be getting help too. Lying to the pro's doesn't help you in any way. Be honest with them, so you can get the help that you need to get through this dark period.

(((Very best wishes to you in the darkness!!))

[ruffy]

(((gypsymama))) Sending gentle comforting hugs your way, hope you dont mind!! Being sick and trying to get medical care is very frustrating for us all. We want to be well now! Unfortunately it may take just a little longer than that. No quick fix, trial and error, feeling like a little lab bunny. We are here for you. May not know everything about what youre feeling right now but have a good idea.

gypsymama, what can we do to make you feel better here?