Still sad about being blocked

I think you could stop spinning your wheels on this by posting support to others IN HERE and moving on..hard as it may be...Your next block at pb will be higher that is how they do it. They have a post up on Admin I think its dated Oct 5th you were active in it..where some pbc's will end in a total block..I think this could be a great learning experience for you on how not to trigger. Many have posted on suicide on PB but your posts stand out for a reason and get you blocked....learn why while you cannot post...Others on This site have problems right now and may be able to use your support..You cannot get Dt Bob to take it back.....Youre FRIENDS could come here to talk to you but have not yet ....why? If you have their addresses by all means write them ...BUT even more so..what are YOUR other issues in your non-board? Are you avoiding them or playing them out by this as you say compulsion? Do not answer me this is just some food for thought.

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You didn't upset me. I was just asking a question is all. Sorry about making you think that you upset me. Usually when I'm upset I write, "I am very upset," or "I am upset". I'm very straightforward that way.

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I'm not sure what you mean sleepswithbutterflies. I really don't. Can you elaborate?

Sleeps,

Are you saying that I don't really have real friends?

I wrote very clearly what I thought might be some things for you to think on..I have people I am supporting right now but reread what I said..you are a smart girl you will get it..Good luck

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Sleeps,

Are you saying that the block is good for me? That people want me to take a break and get my life together first before posting? That I'm avoiding my real life?

Are you saying that the other place may be harming me more than it is helping me?

Or is this about other people? That I hurt people more than help people over there? That I should stop posting there?

Long explanation short - she's telling you to quit being a big whiner.

Sorry, am I being a big whiner here? How about over there? Do I whine too much. How do I whine? What exactly constitutes whining?

Do I talk about my problems too much? Should I talk about other's problems more? That is what I'm trying to get into the habit of doing with all my saved replies. None of the saved replies talks about my problems. All of them are for other people. That is why I think I should post them. I need to develop a new habit of helping others instead of venting my feelings.

When my block is over, I'm going to slowly post all my saved replies and then I'm going to lay low...really low. I don't want to risk getting blocked again.

I don't ever want to be blocked again. The safest thing for me to do is to post as little as possible. I'll save my replies instead and review them all slowly to make sure they are all civil before posting them.

I hope people there can forgive me. Do you think people there forgive me?

i believe that what the majority of people here are saying is this. show restraint, respect other's boundaries and quit e.mailing Bob. i really wish you would look at not posting all those replies when you get back on board. as several have said, your replies are going to be outdated. it will look very obsessive. it is obsessive.

what people are saying about "perspective" is good. you step back, look at what you did to get blocked and then you show that you learned from it. learning from it means that you won't discuss what you've been discussing there and that you also understand why you aren't going to post about said subject. it upsets people.

understanding other's boundaries means that you step back and think before you do something that might affect them. you read other's posts and try to understand where THEY are coming from. NOT you. them. boundaries are very healthy and everyone needs them. you need some too. within yourself.

i have read your posts, sporadically, since you came over here and i agree that you are getting some sort of "payback or payoff" from all of this drama. and we all do that at some time in our lives. but it isn't healthy. it doesn't cause growth because it promotes denial. denial is when you just don't think about what you did and how it affected others. denial is avoidance. you just go your merry way and let things fall where they may. i truly believe that you're in denial about PB. learning why you hurt people and then deciding what to do, inside yourself, will help you.

i don't want to upset you. i want to be supportive. step back and print this entire thread out. read it several times and makes notes about what you can use from it. i think it will really help you. turn the 'puter off. take a walk. do something for yourself. a hot bath. drink a soda. have a treat. be good to greensleaves. pat

Hullo Greenleaves. A long block at another site led me to begin participating in this one. And what became apparent to me was that it turned out to be a blessing in disguise, cliched as that may sound. I've found participation in this site to be a much more satisfying experience than participation at my old site, for a variety of reasons I needn't go into and bore you to bloody tears at this point. My only suggestion is this: patience. A person builds up support system at a new site gradually, and although the process may seem almost maddeningly slow at times, it will happen. So just follow the advice of sci-fi hero Buckeroo Banzai and remember: "Wherever you go, there you are." You're here, so plunge into the pool. I think you may find, as I did, that you'll end up so busy verbally swimming with the people here that after a while you may forget the other pool, or at least it may diminish in its importance to you. I was blocked for six weeks. But it was six months before I even bothered to see what was still going on at my old site. I still pop in there once in a while to say "hullo," but PC is very much my cyberspace "home" at this point, and the site that had seemed so central now seems merely peripheral. That's not to say there aren't people there whom I periodically seek out at that old place and keep up with. But my priorities changed with me scarcely being aware of it. PC is a terrific place to hang your virtual hat for a while, give it a chance and I think you'll be glad you did. Hope you feel better about things soon. Think of it as a new door opening. The old one will eventually re-open, but as it's closed now, why not pull up a barstool and let us buy you a pint and offer you a shoulder. Ta. Cheshire Cat

Thanks guys.

I will give PC a chance. I actually think PC may be healthier for me. I'm not obsessed with PC and I'm not obsessed with DocJohn.

I don't know what it is about the other place that makes me so obsessed.

I like how posts can be deleted by the author here. I've already used that function several times.

I just don't quite feel at home here yet. I just don't know the people here yet. I'm too impatient.

What constitutes support to you, witt? There is no kindness in continuing to rubber-stamp the histrionic behavior exhibited by her posts. The solution to ruminative thinking is not more ruminative thinking.

BTW...I suffer from extremely severe bouts of depression. Don't presume you know me, my diagnosis or my motives...

Kismet......

What do you mean by "histrionic"?

his..............as in not hers
tri................... three wheeled
onic.................i dunno

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as in overly dramatic and attention seeking. That is how it appears to *me*.

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What do you mean by "histrionic"?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> can't speak for Kismet but can link you to your personality disorder quiz you took a few days ago and it has links to explanations of the diff. disorders including histronic.

Re: PERSONALITY DISORDER QUIZ!!!

the link within your post goes to the site where the quiz is located SimilarMinds.com Personality Disorder Info

on this site above is a link to disorders.....follow that to the personality disorders Dr. Grohol's Psych Central -- Personality Disorders and Personality Traits where you can read up on these disorders.

Kismet,

Being called "histronic" makes me cry.

it is sooooooo hard right now to read all of this. the drama of this internet life, that you've chosen, is eating your lunch. HAVE you read anything that we've written to you? so many people are spending their time writing and trying to help you and the drama just keeps pouring in.

greensleaves, step away from the drama and settle down. do you have a therapist?????????? and do you know the definition of histronics?

do you remember what i posted to you about denial???? please go back and read it. pat

You know, I think Greenleaves is trying to figure things out. I believe she's doing her best to take in the advice and er, support she has been getting.

Do those who are offering said advice and support NEED HER to take their advice? Do y'all NEED her to change on a dime? Please give her time, and if anyone feels frustrated in trying to get their message of support across, how about stepping away from what feels like "drama"? Because I can see the frustration creeping in, and I remember other times when folks became frustrated with a poster. It's not pretty.

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I don't understand how I'm being dramatic fayerody...I'm just being open and honest about what I'm feeling.

I'm not very good at showing restraint.

I don't have a T. I have a p-doc I see every 2 weeks. I take 50 mg Celexa and 0.75 mg Risperdal. My p-doc said I have delusions.

Ooops, I forgot, I take 60 mg Celexa now, cuz I got really depressed about 2 weeks ago.

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