yeah!!!

Good news....I drove, no panic at all.....

No intrusive thoughts anymore...I feel calmer.

My head is clearing....

And that general horrible feeling I had is going away

And the anger is going away....it is a very weird feeling, but good...

Just so many different things to work on and I was so normal before.....argh, frustration.

Maybe it's working itself out since it was caused by a situation??

(((((((((((((((((((Yack)))))))))))))))))
Oh, I am so GLAD to see this post! I've kept up with your situation, and you SO deserve to feel better. I'm happy for you!

{{{{{{Yack}}}}}} That is, indeed, great news!

Happy for you, Yack!!!

I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I am sitting here going, please, let these feelings stay...

I feel great

Wahoo....

So weird...I have been feeling better slowly for about a month now...

Hi ya' Yack. I am so happy for you. Take good care!!

Yack,

So glad you're feeling better.

Jane

Yack, this is such great news! I'm really happy things are going so well for you!

((((((((YACK)))))))))

(((((((((((((Yack)))))))))))))))))) I am so happy you are feeling better.

Im glad to hear youre feeling better. Thats wonderful.

All right, Yack!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy for you!!!!!!!!!

Hugs,

Jan

yeee haaaaaaaa! great news, Yack!

Good for you! What a great feeling that must be.

Yeah Yack!

gg

I went out again today, feeling triggery...Like things are reminding me of stuff (him).

...I saw the stupid cream cheese spreaders I bought the day we got "engaged"...(and returned), the place we looked at rings, it was just weird.

...I just remembered how happy I was.

I started to get really angry for some reason....I went shopping, out for lunch, no panic at all...This should be good.

But then I was thinking, how am I going to work? I just missed a year of my life....plus we moved ( a long time ago, like 3.5 years, but I had two horrific experiences in the midst of all of that).

Everything feels like a mess, I don't know a soul. I am so uncomfortable. I feel very displaced...misplaced? I don't know.

Ugh.

Nevermind, I feel like crap.

I am improving, but compared to who I was, this is pathetic. My level of functioning is pathetic. My whole life is a joke.

I have no friends here. I can't pick up the phone and say "Hey, let's go out." My boyfriend (not the jerk) is too far away to see. All of my friends are too far away.

I have to rebuild a whole life from scratch feeling like absolute crap. No support system. There are no weekends. No friends, no weekends, and there is no where to go anyway.

I was 7 weeks away from finishing the coursework for a career that would have taken me places. I had a hundred options. I was becoming a professional. I was living where I wanted.

This little leave I am on is not a vacation. It sucks. Before this happened I could not sit still for more than a week.

I feel like my life is complete chaos. Centered around nothing.

I miss my old grocery store. I miss all of the places I used to go...I hate it here.

All because I walked into a stupid store and went on a date. I don't care how many people say it's not my fault. It still resulted in this. In living here.

Do you know how many hours I spent studying to get to where I was?? Too many. I sacrificed a lot. No parties for me in college.

The one time I take a chance with a guy, the one time I let go, and I end up with a sociopath. Lucky me.

((((Yack))))

I've been doing more negative thinking lately, and I get myself worked up into depression or anger or both. It's awful. I'm sorry that you're experiencing that, too.

Try to remember that feeling better is not a straight-line path. There's going to be ups and downs. In time, the ups last longer and get more frequent than the downs. But at first, it's hard to sustain.

It will get better. I promise.

Hang in there.

gg

You're right GG..thank you..I put a new post under PTSD...

(((((Thank you guys))))))))

I will be ok eventually...

is good Yack...be free...