[Zen888]

Hi Everyone

Things in my life are starting to turn around for the better. But I seem to be lapsing into old patterns of self-distructive behaviors. If I dont have anything to worry about...things are going realitvely good...I start thinking about my past mistakes...blow them out of proportion...think of the worst possible outcomes...and then cause myself to get physical ill...like vomitting...crying...high anxiety...isolation. These thoughts become repetative.

Have you experienced something similar? What do you do when this happens to you? Any suggestions on how to bring myself back to "ground zero" and not live in a state of panic?

Dubz

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((dubz)))))))))))))

i used to LIVE this way. i would be sitting in the bathtub, bills paid, everything fine and the thought there from nowhere, "what am i going to do?"

immediately i just KNEW there was something to worry about and i had to find it. very few times was i able to talk myself down and say, "hush. everything's fine!"

i have stopped that for the most. how? well, with alot of time and therapy.

basically, i had to change my thoughts and their patterns. it's very difficult when it's something that feels it's to the core of you.

Are you in therapy dubz? it helped me alot! meds can help to i'm told.

KD

[Zen888]

((((((((((KIMMYDAWN))))))))))))))

Yes, I have been through an intensive psychotherapy .
As I stated in the first post...when things are going well...I all of a sudden try to find or it pops into my head...something could go wrong or I remember some mistakes I made in the past...and twist them around to try to find some way I should be punished for them.

Dubz

[kimmydawn]

i understand, dubz. i can slip back into this when my anxiety and depression are both increasing. in fact, i find it a vicious circle.

anxiety/depression is increased, they increase this thinking witch makes the anxiety/depression worse...the cycle begins.

can you find why the anxiety/depression is increased and put a focus there. if, of course, that's the case.

KD

[hillbunnyb]

Hi dubz, I feel like they are emotional flashbacks. I kinda had to train myself to: 1) recognize I was ok in the moment. 2) talk myself into the present 3) breathing exersizes 4) fogiveness, forgiveness, forgiveness for whatever I didn't do perfectly whenever it was I fell short of my expectations. 5) give myself positive affirations and a little more space to be human.
Think of yourself as in training. Or in practice. Welcome to the club!