I am tired / weary

Thank you to all of those who posted to me and offered help and support...I really apprecate it and do hope to reply to all of you but right now I am kinda blah and have been trying to just not be online too much ......I wanna see my T Wow all the nice things you said about me and all..I am stunned ....I should be posting more in a day or so but for now..THANK YOU

((((((((((( Sleeps ))))))))))))))

Don't you know how special you are?

We all care about you!!!!!

Love and hugs,

Jan

(((Vertigo...Sky....Lex...Greenleaves)))) Thank you all and yes I am very tired and that list wasn't even 1:100000000000000th of it all. ....it makes it a bit easier to know you all care. Thank you

(((( KAREN....MANDY ))))) As you both know I don't say much about myself but I am broken at this point....Mandy...sorry on the puter Karen I didnt forget the surgery....you stay in my prayers..I will pm you both when I am more up to it..I am just blank

((( January and JMO ))) You support, kind thoughts and prayers DO mean a lot to me

Thank you ((ErinBear)) you have always been here for me on site and in pm and I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you...things still suck and are status quo ....as far as my life but I am so grateful for you and hope all is well for you as I have pm off I do not know

((Petunia))...you always say and do the coolest things and are most thoughtful....how could I not pick up a fair flower from time to time one who has let me lean on her many of times and sits with me at the bar with T.. Thank you

and sits with me at the bar with T..

Awwww thank you (((FuzzyBear))) I love them furry paws and bear hugs.....man I need them too.

WOW Twinks I am almost speechless I am very humbled by what you have said here and that you came out to post to me...I really am touched and honored and wow...thank you ---> rare to see me speechless

((( Melinda))) Thank you, just knowing I have people who care like yourself helps .

Aww Wisewoman what a cool thing to say..I know you mean it and that is why I am very touched by your words. My T has told me I have a lot of integrity. It is one of the few things I do KNOW and own about myself. Thank you for loving me

EJ thanks and you are welcome..where I live it's hard to say if it will stay semi warm as they are predicting this weekend...If so it would help a lot...but its very up and down here usually till May..And yeah I paid my medical insurance and now....nothing left but the food I had before in the freezer and all....I want some milk and whole wheat bread and all but don't see that till April or later

(( SeptMorn )) Thank you for posting here...On the crying I have read that too however I am so past that and have to keep sane on the exterior due to my pets and so on around me.... my cats literally run to me when I have cried and I hate to see them stressed and omg my dog....he will jump on me and lay and lick my face....they worry and fear and whatever they do...feel my pain I am not sure but I have old cats and they don't need the stress..AND frankly its just not their ..I have had so many of these issues for maybe 5 years that I am just ...blank I fear saying this but it's like I don't have the time to cry..I am scrambling so much trying to get done and do and get for this one and do for that one. I kinda think I am far past tears....I am shell shocked in some ways I guess..but YOU ARE right ... it does help and is good for anyone.

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drunksunflower said:
im sorry .. tried to PM u to no avail.

kia kaha

be strong

tara
xx

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Thank you sweetie I am sorry I usually post when I shut my PM off to all....I have and still it is shut off but thank you for the love you Minx you

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iamanne said:
((((((((sleeps))))))))

A cake to celebrate who you are! A caring, considerate, supportive person!

I hope you feel better soon. We're here for you!

Anne and All the Others

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(( Anne and all )) thank you and cake..yummy ..more so thank you for the kind and caring things you have said about me
BTW I love your avatar

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wisewoman said:
Crying is a learned thing for me, had to learn how. I wish I could hold you while you cried. I am not afraid of deep emotion and pain. Crying is good when it releases fully some of the angst within.

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Ya know....myself I would NOT know what to do with that..I have never had it...sad maybe but true I am so use to taking care of me and those around me

(( Time0)) thank you I think it may be a long long while...you are always so kind and supportive I apprecaite you

((( CandyBear )))) hope.....we can try I know you too have had a ****** road to travel ...its hard
Thank you your post meant a lot to me

((( SarahL ))) thank you for being here for me

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January said:
((((((((((( Sleeps ))))))))))))))

Don't you know how special you are?

We all care about you!!!!!

Love and hugs,

Jan

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Jan youre gonna wanna fish smack me on the noggin but no I really don't but thank you...and LMAO on THAT smiley

AND THANK YOU ALL....I was very surprised by some who supported me here cause sometimes I do not think they even see or care much for me..I was and am..... shocked and stand semi wrong

(((BiPolarBear))) you are always so supportive of many including myself thank you ....I will PM you semi soon when I am more up to it....I had posted to you earlier but my post got blown out I think..I did get booted off aol so that may be it.. grrr I hate that

Hi Sleeps,

Thanks for the note here - good to hear from you, even though it sounds like things are hard ((((Sleeps))))) hugs for you

My computer went on the fritz for a few days but I'm hoping I've got it fixed again now (fingers crossed! and toes!). Anyway, I wasn't able to post here...so sorry about that.

I am still sending you lots of good thoughts each day, and was doing so, even when I wasn't able to be online. I just keep hoping things will start looking up for you, Sleeps. I read in another note that you may get some "semi-warm" weather, if I understood it right - that sounds like at least a little improvement, anyway! Surely winter isn't going to last too much longer....fingers crossed for that, too :-)

Take good care of you...

Hugs,
ErinBear