I am tired / weary

I hope you got it fixed too ErinBear I do miss you a lot....Yes they say warmer weather this weekend and so on so we shall see...today I am fine no heat on at all.... Things are the same..I did manage to get for the pets...Hugs

Learning to cry was one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life. It is not to be taken lightly and I know that I suffered so much on that path. Now it is mostly better. It's a hard road but am I wrong when I say maybe learning to cry is a giant step toward healing?

Hey ya Wisewoman I do not disagree with you but in my case I can cry and do now and then but it's been 5 years of MAJOR THINGS that have hit over and over ..new...just as soon as I crawled out of one nightmare another major thing hit...and it continues..so I would spend my whole day in tears unable to get things done and fight to get what I need if I just cried over everything that was appropriate to cry over

Oh man do I know that place. I didn't think I knew anyone with life happenings such as mine. One pile of poo falls and as you are clearing your way duck quick cause here comes another. I agree, I have not cried or mourned those close repeated traumas and losses. You pick up and move on. Only now for me it seems my self decided to go AWOL and will not pick up and carry on any longer. Has her own agenda I suspect. You are strong, your a mystery, so much I don't know, and you are a survivor, a liver, a person who made the energizer bunny. Okay for bad times. Crap do they happen. Ain't no fair.

(( Sleeps ))

SLEEPS Thinking of you hon. Wish you can find some peace in your life there.

Sending you lots of hugz
Bethy

Yeah wisewoman my T has said pretty much the same thing about my ability to fight and do. He said it told him I pretty much took care of myself all my life. He has also told me I do more in one day than he does in a week...and that does NOT include all the poop as you say that has been falling on me..He said he has never seen anyone manage to land on her feet time and time again...but man 5 years of this..I am so weary..I wanna stay on my feet but doubt that will happen for some time yet
Thanks

(( lmo)) ((Bethy)) thank you both for the support

Sleeps,

How about getting a new non-published phone number to keep the pesty creditors away?

EJ

what ... can any of us do ... please lemme know if anything miss foxy one ... arrrghhh i want you to be happy you are so lovely to so many other people you deserve some for yourself

Hey ya EJ NO I will be lucky to have a phone soon and need this number because its the one I have all over..I just screen calls..its a pain ..I wish my cell had not been shut off..I could answer that one

Thanks my little minx I dunno what will help but thanks..its very frustrating..winning a million dollars could help some All in all I am screwed..I am waiting now 2 weeks on a call that will make or break me..and I wait on...and on and on..TAKE ME ON YOUR TRIP and my pets..we would stay there and never come back

yea baby let's elope and find some sugar daddies (but young and sexy ones)

solve alllll our problems :P

Hi Sleeps,

Still thinking of you and sending many good wishes your way, and hugs...

Glad to hear the weather may be warming up there for you. The days are surely getting longer here - I can tell that the sun is getting up earlier in the morning and setting later in the evening. That in itself is a sign that winter can't last too much longer, Sleeps :-) and this colder weather has to be on its way out. Maybe even that will be a good thing.

I hope your other good thing will work out very, very soon. Still keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you.

Hugs,
ErinBear

Not that I have plans I don't but I can see why sometimes people just cash their shytty chips in...

If I didn't have my pets I would I know I would..

((((((((((((((((SleepsWithButterFlies))))))))))))) im really glad you have pets then if that helps you get through until things get better. i hope things get better soon for you. you are in my thoughts.

(((((((( sleeps ))))))))

{{{{{{{{{Sleeps}}}}}}}}}

you are very much loved

You are in my thoughts

I hope you catch a break soon.

I wish I could help, Sleeps.

I know the dire straits you're in.

I care.

Petunia

I am so glad you have pets. I really hope things feel lighter for you soon.

Thanks all...






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I just wish a tornado would kill me and the pets while we sleep or the damn house would blow up and nail us all..I do not fear death at all..I just don't want my furkids left behind

I have never seen in writing all that I feel. What you have written is almost like I wrote it... You sound like your head is barely above the water and that every wave sends you down a little bit further- well, that's how I'm feeling anyway. Even with all my supports in place there are some things that cannot just be magically fixed, and our mood is one of them. I have never wanted to end it all- I have ALWAYS said to every dr I have seen that all I want to do is fall asleep and wake up when everything is 'summery'- warm, flowery and happy. It feels weird that so many other people actually feel the same way as I do- I have never been brave enough before to talk to anyone about it. I hope that the waves get smaller and that slowly you can make your way back to the shore and put your feet back on the nice warm sandy beach...

Sleeps, I really want to know what is going on with more detail. Can you p.m. me? I am sorry you are hurting so much. When I was a kid I used to pray, to who I don't know, that my dog, me and her puppies would all die so no one could suffer the loss of the other. She was a dog made to breed everytime she came into season and there were many puppies. Magical thinking, may we all die by the great spirits hand in our sleep. Please let me in on what is going on inside. You have been my friend. That is worth more then gold.

((((( Sleeps )))))

I'm holding you close to my heart.

Sending mega-positive vibes.